JUST BREATH

That is what I am trying to do right now. Just breath. I am in a bit of a funk, winter and Kelly are not friends:( BUT I am coming out it. I hope. I will be doing some MAJOR blogging this week I PROMISE! Lots of fun stuff to post. Ele and I went to Austin and spent 5 days with Tricia and Tim. WE HAD A BLAST! Lots of Christmas and other fun stuff. Just give me a couple more days to pull my head above the water and breath for a bit, and I will be back in blogging world:D Thoughts and prayers with all of you.
XOXOXOXO

My Christmas

I am feeling a bit Scroogey this holiday season. I guess that is a way of saying I am DOWN this Christmas. This will be the first Christmas without my sweet Nana and I don't know how to handle it I guess. I started decorating my house, and just can't seem to finish. I usually have it all done the weekend after Thanksgiving so we can enjoy it for the whole month of December. I got ALL my Christmas shopping done early thinking that would really help me feel the true spirit of Christmas, but it didn't. I miss so many things about her. I miss talking to her every day, I miss calling her to tell her things that I know will make her happy, I miss the "hello you" on the other end of the phone, I miss going up to see her every few days and having lunch, or taking her Christmas shopping and making her laugh by all my rude comments about people. I miss her smile, I miss her so much it hurts. She was Christmas too me. I don't know how to get past this depression of losing her. I have grieved and cried so much since February, but it is hitting me again. I made egg salad the other day and bawled my eyes out. That was her thing. Egg salad with onions, mayo, and relish on toasted rye bread. I have some of her decorations and I smell them to see if they still smell like her. We were all so blessed to have her for so many Christmas's. I am trying to just be grateful that she is not in pain and she is in a better place, but it is hard when you want to see someone's face so bad it aches. So, to bring my spirits up, I am trying to enjoy every second of this holiday season with my family. I still have my Eleanor, and she is every bit as sweet as Nana. Jac helps me feel better by helping come up with ideas to honor my Nana. She truly was an Angel on this earth and I can't wait to someday hear her say Hello You again. I love and miss you my sweet Nana with all my heart. Merry Christmas.

PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT IN SPANISH FORK

I AM DOING A PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT AT MY SISTER CANDACE'S HOUSE. WE HAVE SOOOOOOOOOO MANY NEW MUST HAVES FOR THE HOLIDAYS, AND REMEMBER THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40! COME!!! THERE IS ALSO GOING TO BE JEWELRY, SCARVES, HEADBANDS, ETC. IT WILL BE WAY FUN!
WED. DEC. 2ND
6:30 TO 8:30 PM - OPEN HOUSE STYLE
email me or leave me a comment if you are interested in coming.
kels2396@yahoo.com

NOOKIE NOOK TIME!!!

OH MY, OH MY!! I am EXTREMELY excited for my anniversary gift from Jac. He gave me the BEST gift for Kelly:D He got me a NOOK!!!!! No, dirty minds, I am not talking about the oh so goodness of lovin, I am talking about my new E book from Barnes and Noble. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to read!! I will read just about anything, and I think people who know me well are a bit shocked when they find out my favorite author is Jane Austen. Of course my favorite book is Pride and Prejudice, I have stated this many a times on my blog, but again, HOW CAN YOU GO WRONG WITH MR DARCY!!! So, I have been dropping hints about the nook and the kindle from amazon for a while now and thought maybe for Christmas? Jac is always a bit hesitant to get me these kinds of gifts and for good reason. I have a way of saying I will use it forever, and am totally bored with it after a week or so. BUT this is going to be the BEST thing!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! He came home from work on our anniversary and asked me if I got him a gift. Me, looking EXTREMELY dumbfounded, said, no, you got your snowboarding pass and I thought you were getting a new board too. So, I hurry and recovered by telling him I bought him his favorite cereal. WHAT A LOSER!!!! I felt like CRAP! So, I thought he was kidding when he asked me if I wanted my gift or if I wanted to wait until we got up to Sundance for dinner. I of course said NOW!!!!! AND, he pulled out a piece of paper. What could it be?!?! It was the receipt for my NOOK!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!! I will be getting it in a couple of weeks and I don't know if I have said this but I am WAY EXCITED!!!
Check them out. They are a bit pricey, but if you read as much as me, it will save you money in the end. LOTS AND LOTS of free books and when you do buy one, they are NEVER more than $9.99. Even the new releases. AND think of all the trees we are saving!!!!! Kind of orgasmic if you ask me!!! So, if you see me at a stop light, or at the gym with this weird giant ipod looking thing, DON'T BOTHER ME!!! I AM probably reading one of Mr. Darcy's epic lines. THANKS JAC!! You are the best, and you can go snowboarding EVERYDAY, wait, you already do that. Oh well! I will be reading on my NOOK!!!! LOVE YOU JAC!

11 YEARS, ARE YOU SURE?!?!?!

Jac and I just celebrated our 11 year wedding anniversary yesterday. WOW! Can't believe it. It doesn't seem that long, but at the same time, I can't remember my life without him. You know? Feels like he has always been in my life. We always tease and say that since we have had such a good run the last 11 years, maybe we should quit while we are good. FUNNY, yet scary to me. It is a little bit of too much reality for me right now. SO many of our dear friends are getting divorced. Heart breaking. I had a panic attack a month or so ago about it. WORRYING that Jac was going to leave me. Lying awake staring at him wondering what it would be like if he wasn't there anymore, dropping the kids off for the weekend and what would I do without all of them around. I of course freaked out in my Kelly way, and cried and "expressed" my feelings too him, and he of course handled it in his oh so Jac, laid back, James Dean way, and laughed at me, then hugged me, and in his LOVING way, reassured me that he is not leaving me. I go through that once in a while. You would to if your husband was a super good looking photographer who works with GORGEOUS models, BUT not going into that. I am not insecure in the least bit, I think God blesses me so I don't lose it all the time, but once in a while I freak out and he brings me down like Xanax. We waited a while to have the kiddies, and REALLY Enjoyed our seven years traveling, hanging with friends, partying, traveling, sleeping, eating, working, sleeping and more sleeping!!! BUT, I wouldn't trade any of that for our two juniors. Well, maybe for some more sleep, BUT, Monkey is actually sleeping better.
Life is so NOT perfect at Casa Scott, but we work. We put up with each others crap and we have our "fun" battles, which I always win, guess working for Attorney's for so long you learn to argue:D Well, okay, I NEVER win, but I like to pretend I do. And the more wrong I am, the LOUDER I argue.
I love Jac with everything I have. He is my joy, my soul, my besty, my confidant, my heart, and most importantly my companion. Love you Budah! Can't wait for the future of us sitting on a HOT Beach somewhere, you surfing, taking pictures or watching birds, while I read Pride and Prejudice over and over on my Nook and judge everyone around me for what they are wearing and their way too tan bodies, and planning my next botox, hair and eyebrow waxing appointments, all while eating some Curry and rice. And at the end of the day, we will be us, and there is nothing better to me. I LOVE YOU, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

PURSE AND NECKLACE PARTY AT MY PLACE!!

I AM HAVING MY LAUNCH SHOW FOR PARADE OF PURSES AT MY HOUSE. THATS RIGHT ALL, I HAVE STARTED A NEW ADVENTURE. DECIDED I NEEDED SOMETHING TO DO TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE, MAKE SOME MONEY SO JAC DOESN'T KEEP TELLING ME TO STOP BUYING STUFF, AND WHAT A BETTER THING FOR KEL TO DO THEN SELL SOMETHING SHE IS OBSESSED WITH!!!! PURSES, PURSES, PURSES!!! I HAVE BEEN TO MANY A PURSE PARTIES AND I LOVE LAROBYN'S STUFF. SHE GETS THE CUTEST BAGS AND THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40. CAN'T BEAT THAT!!
SO COME AND SEE ALL THE MUST HAVES FOR THIS FALL/WINTER, OR JUST COME BOOK YOUR OWN SHOW SO YOU CAN EARN FREE STUFF!!! MY CUTE FRIEND MICHELLE WILL ALSO BE HERE SELLING HER OH SO CUTE NECKLACES.
SO, LOTS OF FOOD, PURSES, AND NECKLACES!!! YOU NEED TO BE HERE!!
NEXT TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 3RD FROM 6:30 TO 8:00, OPEN HOUSE STYLE
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KELS2396@YAHOO.COM

TWO OF US DRIVING NO WHERE

Sunday the 11th is my Budah's birthday. WOW! It seems like yesterday we were going on our first date exactly thirteen years ago. We had our first date the week of Jac's birthday. That is why I LOVE Fall so much. The chill in the air, the smell of the leaves and the temperature changing. AHHHHHH!!!
Jac and I have been on MANY road trips together. Gosh, I don't even think I can count them. We LOVE driving together and the anticipation of getting to our destination. Which is usually Southern Cali where we can bake in the sun, well, I can while Jac surfs, and smell the sea air, feel that cool, oh so needed sea spray, and sit and watch some of the most amazing sunsets imaginable.
Every time I hear The Beatles song two of us, I think of me and Jac and our road trips. We LOVE that song and it has kind of become "our" song. We have so many, but that one always makes me smile and think about him and I in the Jetta or the Jeep driving somewhere, or no where at all. We haven't been on too many road trips with the kiddies, but they are getting older and we are planning lots and lots of trips for the future.
Jac is my heart and I LOVE him so much. He works SOOOOOOOOOOO HARD all the time to support our family. He is an AMAZING photographer and has so many other great talents. Oh, and he is so damn good looking it is kind of sick:) I am one lucky girl to have him and I thank him for such a wonderful love and life we have.
This morning I was sitting at the dining room table checking my email and I looked into the kitchen through the little cut out and I started to cry. My sweet Jac and our two adorable kiddies were singing and dancing to Danzig of all things, but we were all together. How did I get so lucky? Why did I get him? How did we get the two of them? I thank God everyday for my sweet little family and all our blessings.
So, to my Budah, which I call him that not because he looks like Budah, but because his motorcycle makes that deep BUDAH BUDAH sound, anyway, to my Budah, I love you with everything I have. You are the most amazing husband, father and best friend a girl could ever ask for and I thank you for loving me. I know it is a challenge sometimes, but we work and I cherish you. Happy BIrthday Jac!!!

HIGH'S AND LOW'S, WHAT ARE YOURS?!?!?

What are your highs and lows? Meaning, what gives you that Euphoria, that combustion in your chest, the ORGASM if you will, that you need to scream out loud or you are going to burst feeling. And what are you lows? What causes you physical pain, and makes your chest ache. Causes your eyes to burn with tears that just won't flow. We all have them, or l do anyway. I love to sit and look at others and wonder what theirs are. I am a people watcher. So, if you catch me staring, I am probably just trying to figure you out. Not judging, just wondering.
So, what are your highs? Mine, are pretty simple and surfaced I would say. But they are mine and that is all that matters.
The first time Jac kissed me and held me. I felt safe, love, lust, and just bliss. I thought I had felt that from a guy before, but nope! He was the first and the last, and I am so happy to say that I still feel this way with him after 13 years. He has my heart and always will.
When I walked out my parents back door that bright, crisp, amazing Christmas morning and there was my GORGEOUS white, spankin' new VW Jetta. Jac gave me my first car, it was mine. ALL MINE and l loved that car!
The day l found out I was preggers with Ele. Best day. I thought I was going to explode with happiness! Couldn't wait to tell the world.
The day she was born. No words can explain the relief of pain, anxiety and just true euphoria it was. Seeing her beautiful little alien face for the first time. Hearing that cry. holding her close to me for the first time. Watching Jac fall in love all over again. So amazing.
The day I walked off the airplane at JFK airport in New York City. l had dreamed about going there my whole life, and finally did.
Walking into to Tiffany's on 5th avenue, WOW! My dream for so many years. Jac taking me up to the 5th floor and letting me pick out a treasure to remember my first trip to NYC and Tiffany's by. Which I wear on my middle right finger every day.
Phin's arrival. SUCH a long, hard, sick pregnancy with him, and seeing him, holding him, loving him for the first time. Finding out his breathing was alright. Having Ele come to the hospital to meet her baby brother for the first time. Seeing Jac hold his "Jr." I was complete. My little family.
Those are just a few of my highs. So many more I could write about, So many from my childhood with my sisters, my parents, my Nana and Papa, all my cousins, and friends. Too many to write about, this post would go on forever.
I heard a song the other day that really made me think about my lows. I love music. I am constantly listening to music. Singing, crying, laughing about songs I love.
I don't believe in dwelling on the past and mistakes, but rather making your life better from those experiences. But, sometimes that is hard. I am not going to write about too many of my lows, because they are just, well, private. BUT, I will tell you that I have learned to NOT regret some of my lows. I use too. I use to think I was such a horrible person because of some of my choices in life. Not any more. I can't live my life in regret. I don't want to be a bitter person. Those people make me sad.
Lows make me stronger. It takes a little while, but I come out of my low better and stronger then before it began.
Losing loved ones, dogs, friends too young, being dumped for the younger girl in high school after giving everything to him, wondering if your life will ever be normal, struggling to be "perfect" in this society. These are a few of my lows that have inspired me to feel the euphoria of my highs. You will never know true love it you don't feel deceit and pure heart break. I wouldn't of known what loving Jac and being loved by Jac would really be like, without a low in my life. The one that when I heard this song, inspired this post.
"Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
you're gonna believe them
and when you're fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be, at fifteen" - Taylor Swift
Take your lows and make them your inspiration to have highs. I guess my lows helped me be more appreciative of my life. A good life at that.

THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!!!!

The new erasers, the packages of all the pencils and pens, all the cute backpacks, the cubes of post its, and all those darn lunch boxes!The best time of year is when you walk down the isles of Target and see and smell all the school supplies. I LOVE shopping for new school clothes and supplies, and still go with my mom to the mall and get new shoes and clothes this time of year. It also means Fall is just around the corner. PUMPKINS, falling leaves, and HALLOWEEN!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
BUT this year it is really FUN and special for me. My Ele started preschool! WOW! I can't believe she is 4 and going to school. She LOVES her preschool and is in LOVE with Miss Cathy her teacher.
To get her all ready and prepared for her first day, we have been doing LOTS and LOTS of shopping! We spent the entire day last Sunday with our great friends Ashlee and Ellie in Park City, shopping, eating, and laughing. Just mommies and the girls. Ele and Ellie are such good friends and have so much fun together, and I just LOVE Ash! We laughed and talked and just really enjoyed watching our girls have so much fun together. We walked and walked and laughed and chased Ele and Ele and spent lots and lots of money. BUT we got some cute stuff and really had fun!!
The following day Ele was SOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED she couldn't sit still! She spent about an hour trying to figure out which outfit she wanted to wear and what shoes would be best. I am in trouble. She is a total shoe and clothes horse like her Mama. She finally settled on her new dress and cute polka dot leggings. Very shabby chic. She was set. We spent a few minutes taking pictures and mommy crying, more pictures, mommy choking back more tears, and then she did it. My SWEET little Blue looked at me and said, "Oh Mommy, you will be alwight, I will be back befoe you know it!" She is too sweet! I really cried then. Good thing I have such big sunglasses to hide the swollen no make up eyes. We hopped in the car and drove too Miss Cathy's Moonbeam Preschool. She just walked right up that walk way and headed right in. Hung her little Tink backpack in her cubby and was off to play with the toys, and wait for her besty Mia to get there. I sat there and watched my whole world unravel. Remembering back to feeling that little bean in my belly while I would sit at my desk at work longing to hold her. Remembering those LONG four days of labor awaiting her appearance, remembering the first day we got to spend home alone after I quit my job, our times at the park, our all nighters with her poor ears, our sleep overs in mommies bed when daddy is out of town, Oh so many memories and fun times with my Ella Blue! As I made my way to the door with Phin, I looked back at my beautiful little Blue and she gave me that GORGEOUS grin and said," Love you Mama!" in her little no "R's" brooklyn accent. The tears were POURING out of my eyes as I walked to my car. Four years. How they have flown. Did I do enough with her? Did I spend enough time just me and her laughing? Did I yell too much? Did I prepare her enough for school? On and on it goes. I never thought I would be driving her to preschool and dance lessons and singing all my wonderful naughty music with her. I just never imagined she would be mine and be grown up so fast. My Phin is one, is so independent now. He still loves Mama to rock him and sing too him and he and I are really enjoying our three afternoons a week alone. Usually spent either at home lying on the front room floor zooming cars around or at Costco or some shop just me and my boy! I am so in love with my kiddies. I can't look at them enough. They are my world. So, to you mommies out there. Enjoy your moments and time with your kiddies. It does go fast. It is hard for me to let Ele go, but there is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much joy in her voice when we ride home in the car and I listen to her and Mia talk about school and the boys and how gross they are. I actually had a glimpse of the future the other day. NOT looking forward to that! Jac and I talk about the future and how much trouble we are in for if she is anything like her very "SOCIAL" mother. HEEEHEEEE!
Now I cherish my weekends home with Jac and the kiddies so much more. making breakfast and singing and dancing in the kitchen. My cup runneth over.

ISSUES, WE ALL GOT 'EM!

I have been trying to find a way to write about my experience with postpartum depression for a while, and how hard of a year my family has had because of it. I am still really struggling, but with the GREAT meds, and support from my family and friends, I make it some how. Jac has really taken the brunt of my depression, and I thank him so much for his love, HELP, and support. It sucks to be crazy! That is the only word I can say that expresses how I really feel. I use to hear about postpartum depression and thought, well, what is the deal? Just be happy! It's not that hard! WOW!!! I can't believe how upside down I felt for so long. I actually had it after Ele too, but I went back to work 6 weeks after she was born, and I think it helped. I have ALWAYS had issues with depression, but I covered them up with my oh so fun personality and just made my self be happy. Can't do it any more. It is so hard to admit you have issues, when you are suppose to be this so perfect wife, mother, daughter, sister, and sister of the mormon church. I AM NOT PERFECT! And I am not ashamed to say it. I am so grateful for God and his hand in my life, and for the church. I do LOVE being a member of this church, but I will not let my self feel horrible anymore for the life I live. I have Faith and i believe in the Lord and God. I pray! Yes, to all my friends, I do! I learned from my sweet Mom and Nana to pray. it does work and I know it. BUT, I can't handle the close minded ideas and issues. I won't go into all my opinions on gay marriage and Civil Rights and don't need too, but I don't understand how members of the church can preach free agency, and love one another, and Jesus says love everyone, treat them kindly too, and then write such horrible words and yell such horrible things at anyone. We are all equal and should be treated so. I will raise my children to love EVERYONE, and do not judge others for being different than us. Ele and Phin will grow up being taught the principals of the gospel, BUT, they will also know that mommy doesn't believe being gay is a choice. You can have your opinion and I can have mine. If you don't like mine, don't read my blog! We are all different and we shouldn't be frowned upon because of it, and told we are wrong because of something we don't chose to be. I think we all need to focus on a lot worse things that are justified and ignored in the world. Like children being abused in all ways. Take those issues to the supreme court and quit worrying about Jon and Jon wanting to get married!!
So, to all my mommy readers out there. DON'T LET YOURSELVES LOSE YOURSELVES!!! That is my motto today. Having my babies is the best thing I ever did, but I don't think we should lose our mental health for good for it. I am trying to lose this damn baby weight and get back in shape, but it is hard. I am tired of feeling like crap, and really, really want to buy that pair of Frye boots this winter!! SO, for some reason I needed to put this out there. Maybe it is because I read one of my favorite blogs, http://www.thegirlwho.net and Monica always inspires me to speak my mind and NOT care what every one thinks about me. She is a very talented writer and strong woman. I went to school with Monica and have been stalking her blog for a while now. She has a GREAT IDEA on her blog that I think everyone that has a blog should participate in. Check it out!!
So, in closing, I want hope all of my friends and family know that I am happy. It has been a ruff go for my family, but I am doing great!! I have my down days, and you can tell, but I have great friends and family to pick me up and keep me going. Thank God for meds!!! That is all I can say! I hope someday to be off them, but I don't think so. I NEVER want to feel the way I felt a year ago. I guess that is why I felt the need to write this today. I was just thinking back to a year ago and where I was and how hard it was for Ele and Jac. I LOVE my family more than anything in the world, and will protect them to the death, but sometimes you have to protect them from your self, and that can be the hardest thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONKEY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR SWEET MONKEY!!! Phin turned 1 years old today! I can't believe how quickly time flies! It seems like just yesterday he was this little tiny infant. Now he is walking, laughing and talking his little language. He can say yes, light, and hat. We love him SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! He is such an amazing little boy. Loves to play with his big sister Ele and just watch her. He is fascinated by her. She is definitely his favorite.
I love watching him with Jac. He is so happy when his daddy is holding him. He is on top of the world.
I am so happy to tell my sweet little Monkey HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY!!! We love you so much!

FARE THEE WELL MY BRIGHT STAR

I had to say good bye to my sweet Dakota this past week. He was 13 and was showing his age really bad. He had lost so much weight this past year, and had just really gotten old. All I can say, is good bye my sweet boy. I have never loved an animal as much as I have loved him. I have my sweet Sadie, and LOVE her the same, but Kota will always have a very special place in my heart. He got me through one of the hardest times in my life. He was my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, and really my only friend in the world at that time. He was the reason I got up in the morning, and would come and butt my arm with his head when I was so down and just sitting in the yard wondering where my life was headed. He made me smile when I felt I couldn't.
There is a part in the movie Marley and Me, when Jennifer Aniston has a miss carriage and she doesn't cry until she gets home and holds Marley, their dog and then she lets go. I have been there. Kota was that for me. the only one who I showed my true feelings too. The only one. I didn't have a miss carriage, but I lost one of my best friends in the world, and Kota was the only one who I felt I could share my feelings of loss with, because nobody knew how much I loved this guy, and I couldn't believe I wasn't going to have any more late night phone calls with him, or sneak up to Salt Lake to spend time with him and see his sweet smiling face. I didn't think I was going to be able to go on, and Dakota knew that. Some how, that sweet dog knew and saved me. I will always think of him in the summer evenings when the wind blows and I can smell the sweet smell of the linden trees in my parents yard.
My heart hurts today as I am typing this, but I know he is MUCH better off. I love you Kota Bear, and I will NEVER forget what you did for me.
I took this picture a few days ago when we were out in my parents back yard playing. It was the last time He and Sadie were together. Such an odd couple. Big huge lab, and tiny, dainty Italian greyhound. They were truly soul mates. Sadie will miss him too. I don't know how I will look out my parents back door and not see that sweet blonde face any more. And hear that tail wagging against the sliding glass door. He was the most loved dog. My mom and dad took such good care of him. He was so spoiled and loved. He was so NOT a house dog, but every time I went up there, he was in the house by the back door on the rug. He loved my mom so much. She is an AMAZING person and really loved him, and I thank her and my sweet dad so much for taking such good care of my first baby.
So, as we have to say good bye to another loved one in our family, I am just grateful for the memories and time spent with all of them.
So, fare thee well my bright star. I will never forget you my sweet Dakota.

Jac's "OTHER" lady!

Well, those of you who know Jac and I, know that we have a very eccentric, odd some would say relationship. We both give and take. We communicate very well. We both like to have fun and tease each other. Keeps out relationship fresh and fun!. He is AMAZING! Like I have mentioned in several posts, Jac works EXTREMELY hard and works A LOT. He is so dedicated to his work and supporting our family. He doesn't have a lot of time to do "Jac" stuff, but we have made it a priority for Jac to get to do his stuff. He LOVE his motorcycle. Seriously, I think she is right up there with me and the kiddies. I LOVE IT! Nothing sexier than a guy on a bike. My guy on a bike. SUPER SEXY!! I always have had a thing for the bad boys. I dated the bad boy in high school and paid for it. Got treated like crap, cheated on constantly, but for some reason, I couldn't get enough. Tried dating the jock, not my bag. Always liked the naughty ones I guess. Well, Jac is the perfect combo of bad\good. I knew he was the one for me on our first date when he took me on a dirt bike on some really ruff trail and almost bounced me off the back! SUPER FUN! He has always treated me like I am the only girl in the world, and still does. I loved that he was the skater, surfer, dirty bad boy with a VERY sweet, romantic, good side. PERFECT man for me. We dated for 2 years and finally got married. We have been together for 13 years this fall. Best 13 years of my life. He saved me. Made me a better person. Gave me two beautiful amazing children that we adore. He is the best and I LOVE him more than anything in the world. I am SOOOOOOOO glad he has his bike and that he LOVES every second of her. I don't mind her being the "other" lady. Glad she's a bike! HEEEHEEEE! Oh, and did I mention that he is totally sexy on it?!?!
I am a very lucky lady and I know it! LOVE YOU BUDAH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET SISTAH CANDACE!!!

So, I know I have said it before, and I will say it again! I am sooooooooo blessed to have the two BEST sisters in the world! They are fab! They are my besties and my confidants! I LOVE them with all my heart!
Today is Candace's birthday, and I want to wish her the BEST day! She and I have gotten so close over the past few years. I don't know what I would do without her. She is SUCH a big help to me in so many ways. Always there for me when I need to vent and bitch, but also there for me when I break down and think I can't go on. She has NO idea how much she has helped me this past year. She did so much for me when I had Phin, I wouldn't of made it without her. LITERALLY! I will try and repay her this Summer when she has her baby girl!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH CAN!! Thanks for being my best friend and sister. Hope you have the best day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELE BIG 4 YEAR OLD!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE MY BABY GIRL IS FOUR YEARS OLD!!! Wow how time flies. It seems just like yesterday I was DYING of labor pains for FOUR days and thinking that having a baby was a really bad idea!! WELL, that all changed on June 7, 2005 at 6:32 am. The most AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL, FANTASTIC little girl entered this world, and changed mine and Jac's world. She is so special. We just adore you Ele! She has been the light of our lives and will continue to be so. She has changed soooooooooooo much in the last year. Not only her appearance, but her entire personality. She is a little lady. She can light up a room with her smile, she can make you cry with her sad eyes, and she can break your heart with a whisper of "I love you." Ele is an exceptional little girl. She LOVES, well WORSHIPS her daddy. They are so cute together. She melts him.
She is my heart. I always wanted a little girl, but never knew how amazing she would be. She is the best big sister to her brother Phin. He adores her. I was bawling today watching them play in the sandbox at my parents house together. She is so patient with him and helps him learn and develope so much. She is my little helper around here. My walls and doors all clean from her level down.
I can't imagine my life with out my "Blue," she is enchanting. Her eyes take you to another relm. I have enjoyed our mommy daughter sleep overs this week while Jac has been in New York. I am going to miss her little snores while I am awake reading, and her little laughs while we lay in the dark with the flashlight making animals with our fingers and the shadows.
I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL! You truly are an amazing little girl. WE WISH YOU THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER! LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

JIVE BABY!

Here are some of the shots from Ele's dance concert with Jive a few weeks ago. She did SOOOOOOOO GOOD! She loves dance and is going to keep taking through the summer!
More pics to come later!

SOOOOO FUN!!

K, so I just wanted to share this GREAT find with all my mommy, pool going friends!
I am ALWAYS searching for my keys. Seriously! I have lost my VW flip key plenty. It drives my ever so patient, sweet, GORGEOUS husband nuts!! I just had to order a new back so I could hook my car key back on my key ring and I am sooooooo happy I did. BUT, I have been looking for something cute/funky, i.e. sooooooo Kel for my keys, and look at what I found!! I saw this on Giveaway Today's Blog. It is from Sweetirie.blogspot.com. (link to her blog from her button right here on my blog.) I just ordered this set and CAN'T wait to get it! I was just going to order the key chain because I thought, how great! I can hook it in my diaper bag or purse, and wear it on my wrist while carrying Phin and holding Ele's hand to and from everywhere. But, then I saw the ever so cute change bag that hooks onto the key chain, and got really, really excited! I am soooooooooooo paranoid when we go to the pool in the summer that someone is going to steal my wallet. You have to take $$$ to get in and buy goodies for the kiddies, and I hate having cash just hanging around in my swim bag because like I mentioned before, I am GREAT at losing stuff! I think this will be perfect for my cash and cell to go in so I can leave my wallet locked in my car. I also just ordered one for my sweet sister Candace's birthday. Oh, and Tric, I have one coming to you too! HEEEHEEE!
I LOVE Etsy and finding cute yet functional stuff on there. I am actually starting my own Etsy site and will let you all know when it is up and going. I am very excited to try and sell some of my stuff!

WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!!!

WOW!! We have had a very busy, crazy, yet AMAZING past weekend.
Ele had her very first Dance recital with Jive last Friday and Saturday. (posting pics later.) We had lots and lots of practices, dress rehearsal, and go go go!!!! Pretty hectic but WONDERFUL! She did awesome! Jac and I are very proud parents. She was patient, listened well, and just really enjoyed the whole experience. She LOVED being on stage and performing. And, I have to say, for an almost 4 year old, she did the dance pretty good!
Jac, my parents, my sweet grandma, and Jac's dad all came and watched her Friday night. We had some very proud grandparents. Ele got her first bouquet of flowers from her dad. Very sweet! They are on her armour in her bedroom. She is very proud of them.
Last Saturday was CRAZY! Jac had to shoot the Auto Expo. at Thanksgiving Pointe. So I was on my own with to and from with two kiddies! My super sweet parents took Phin for the afternoon so I could be the stage mom for the 2:00 performance and not have to deal with Terminator himself, and 13 screaming little girls at the same time! Thanks again mom and dad!! Phin was an angel for them. He LOVES his Gram and Bapa very much!
I had a TON of fun being with Ele and getting to be the "mommy" for her class before their performance. After the 2 pm show, Ele and I headed over to our sweet friend Tami's baby shower. Ele loved it! They had a really fun yard for her to play in, and I got to relax and enjoy some good friends before heading back for two more performances. We headed to my parents and picked up Monkey and headed back down to the recital. Ele was really excited to get to perform again and again! Monkey Do was tired, but being super patient and good.
After the Auto Expo, Jac headed up to Salt Lake for the AIGA 1\100 awards. His department at UVU were getting some awards. Well, to his surprise, my very AMAZING, TALENTED, OH SOOOOOOO GOOD LOOKING Budah, got 1 out of 10 awards!! It is called the Copper Ingot award. He got it for one of his shots for the UVU magazine he did a couple issues ago.
l am SOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of him!! He has worked so much, and so hard this past year. He TOTALLY deserved the award, and I think he is smiling a bit bigger today! Good Job Babe! We are soooooo proud of you! I am a bit sad I didn't get to be there to see him receive the award, BUT, I was sure excited to see my sweet little Ele dance her little heart out! She truly is our gorgeous glowing Blue! We love you Ele! She has a birthday coming up, and I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 4. WOW! Where does it go? I love you Blue. Good job dancin'! And, Phin, good boy sitting there through all the chaos! All in all, I am a very proud, happy, and glowing mom and wife. AND, Jac is also glowing because he will be getting his Motorcycle back from the shop after 7 LONG months of it getting chopped. I will be posting pics of it later too!

SPRING SWAP! - LINK

My cute friend Hannah at Sherbet Blossom is doing a Spring Swap. It sounds fabulous! I have signed up and hope all my family and friends do to. It will be so fun to share all our talents and see what you get! I will be posting what I send and what I receive this month, so make sure you check back later on to see!
Go to the link and sign up.

CUTE, CUTE CUTE!!!! - Oh my heck on Etsy - LINK

K, So my super cute, talented, amazing friend Michelle has started an etsy site. She makes the most ADORABLE necklaces. And guess what? They are SUPER affordable. Check out her site and order some. I ordered two today, and will for sure be ordering more. I LOVE supporting my friends and family in their ventures, so if you have something you are selling, let me know. I love to buy stuff and advertise! HEEHEEE!
Check out Michelle's Etsy site by hitting link above

"TURN AROUND, DON'T DROWN!!!!"

K, so I have the two best sisters in the world! Candace and I got to go to Houston last weekend and spend four AMAZING days with Tricia and Tim. We left the kiddies and the snow for some very much needed sistah time. My absolutely amazing, super supportive husband took work off to stay home with Ele and Phin so I could go. Thanks Budah, you are the BEST! Candace left Ally and Andrew with her sister and brother in law because Jimbo was in Florida for work. Can and I left Thursday morning. We of course had a great flight talking and laughing and gearing up for some fun sister time with Tric. We got there and the weather was good. Over cast, moist and ahhhhh! I LOVE humidity and sea level. Best for the skin and hair! We went out that night and got some dinner and hung out at the house with Tim and "Devil Dog" Picabo. She is HILARIOUS! She is definitely in charge of that household! I love that little stinker and actually miss her!
We of course stayed up super late, well, anything past 10 is super later too me, so me going to bed at 2 am, was EXTREMELY late! Good thing I could sleep in on Friday! It was really nice to not have to get up and feed Phin, but I did wake up a couple of times thinking the morning doves outside cooing were baby boy. So, Friday we woke up and it was still pretty overcast. But, we decided to get ready and head out for lunch and SHOPPING! What we Davis girls do best. Eat, chat, and shop, shop SHOP!!!!! We sat and ate lunch and chatted. We decided to head to the Outlet Mall. Nothing better than cheaper stuff! I love Coach purses and baby, they have a Coach outlet. WAHOO! Well, we started heading that way when it started pouring rain, I mean insane amount of water coming from the sky. So, while Tricia couldn't see at all driving, we decided to just stick around the area by her house. We did a bit of shopping around there and then took a shower in our clothes in the rain storm and headed home. It was so crazy! I have never seen anything like that in my life. I can't imagine what it would of been like to be there for Hurricane Ike, because this was seriously scary enough without the wind!
We decided on Saturday to hang out at the house and wait to see if the storm was going to let up at all. Well, it didn't so, the insane shoppers we are, we decided we didn't give a rats, and headed out! We drove on the access road which is next to the freeway thinking it would be better then the freeway. HOLY CRAP! We were seriously driving in a river! But, come Hell or High water, HEEHEEE, we were getting to the damn outlet mall! We made it, but not without drama. Cars were getting submerged in water and stalling. It was nuts! Once we got to the mall the storm started to let up and we actually saw some sunshine. We didn't care. We had each other and lots and lots of stores to walk through and money to spend! Let's just say, I was NOT disappointed! I got some great stuff and had some serious laughs with my two sistahs! The Texas slogan "Turn around, don't drown" is NOT at all fabricated! CRAZY but beautiful place. I LOVED IT!
The trip of course went way too fast, and I miss Tricia terribly! Sucks we live so far away from each other, but it is nice to get to go and visit such an amazing place. I love my sisters so much and I am so lucky to have them in my life. We laughed so dang hard and talked so much, that I think I have permanent laugh lines! I LOVE you Candace and Tricia! Thanks for the fun and the memories! Can't wait until next time!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I am a very compulsive shopper. It drives my sweet Jac nuts! I LOVE to shop and find new things. I have a major obsession with shoes and purses, and spend a lot of my time looking for new styles and colors of them both. I don't do my research and I have a hard time waiting for things to go on sale. Ok, I NEVER wait for things to go on sale. I think if I do, they will all be gone. Well, I decided when I was pregnant with Phin that we needed to get a double stroller because I spend a lot of time in the mall and out walking. I found a sit and stand one that I thought was going to be fab, but I was WRONG! I hated that dang thing! Phin hated riding in the back because the seat reclined to far back and he couldn't stand that, and he of course hated his carrier so putting him on the front part wasn't working for him either. Ele is pretty easy going and would sit in either spot, but she did complain that her feet got stuck in the back seat a lot. So basically I paid about $160 for this stroller and barely used it at all. It sat in the back of my wagon and made an appearance once in a while. I decided that it wasn't ever going to get used so I talked to my friend\neighbor to see if they would be interested in buying it since they were having another child. They did and BAM! It was sold!! YAY! Thanks again Lex!
Well, then came the dilemma of not having a stroller for my days at the mall or just walking out side with the kiddies. Phin is getting a bit too heavy for the Bjorn, so my search began! I really wanted to get a double jogger so I can exercise with it and take it on our family outings. I thought about getting a bike trailer and then we could take the kids on bike rides and I could also use it as a stroller, but I think those are too big, and I am not a huge bike rider. Jac and I went all over the last couple of weeks from store to store looking for double joggers. Jac is a HUGE researcher! He gets really annoyed with me because I just buy the first thing I see because I have NO patience for it. So he started his research. We found a Columbia one at Sports Authority but Jac didn't like that the front wheel didn't swivel. So we came home, Kelly very frustrated and annoyed. So I started searching the web. I found this one! It it great! It has the highest ratings and every review l read was great, so Jac ordered it for me for my birthday. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!! I haven't had a chance to use it yet because of the CRAPPY weather, and I haven't put air in the tires yet, but I will hopefully be using it soon! YAY!! Thanks BUDAH!!

MY BLUE AND MONKEY DOO!

I just wanted to write a bit about my AMAZING kids. I am so in love with them both it is sick! When Jac and I had Ele, we didn't think we would ever have room to love any other kids. Seriously. We thought we would only be able to have her because we both worshipped her so much, we didn't know how we could share love with another child. Well, were we wrong! We have our little Monkey Doo as I call him, our Phin, and we both adore him.
Blue, that is my Ele, She is the most amazing little girl. She loves her little brother and takes such good care of him. She is growing up to be quite a unique and amazing little lady. She loves to sing, dance, play, and create. She is definitely going to be an artist like her father. Who knows what direction she will go, but she is definitely talented in so many ways. I love watching her learn and grow. She is my heart. I can't help but smile when I look into the amazing blue eyes. I love you Blue!
Monkey Doo, I don't know why I call him that, but it just fits. Phin is just a love. He loves Mama to cuddle him and just be near him. He needs me and I LOVE that. He is growing and learning every day. He loves Ele with all his heart and can't stand it if she is not home. He is constantly looking for her when she is not here. He takes me to another place when I hold him and rock him to sleep. My favorite time with him is sitting in his room in the rocking chair soothing him, and making him feel safe. I love you Monkey Doo!
My family is my whole world. I love them sooooooooo much that it physically hurts me to think of not having them around. I am so lucky and blessed to get to be these childrens mother, and am so grateful to my Jac for working so hard so I can stay home and watch these two beautiful angels grow, and help them learn. I love my Heavenly Father for blessing Jac and I with them. They are so strong in so many ways. How can you not believe in and AMAZING God when you look at these two? Really, I am blessed!!

HAPPT ST. PATTY'S DAY!!!

Pretty toes, flip flops, OH MY!

Well, It is time. Time to get your feet pretty!
If you know me, then you know that all I wear all Spring, Summer, and even Fall are flip flops! I am obsessed with them. I buy too many, in Jac's opinion, but to me, you can never have too many! I am VERY excited that it is starting to warm up a bit and I can't WAIT to wear flip flops. I also have a very HUGE infatuation with my toes being painted. I can't stand when they get chipped or look shabby. I am going to get a pedicure this weekend for sure! I CAN'T WAIT! I am thinking I may take Ele for her very first one too. Maybe a mommy daughter day?!?!?
Thought I would share some of my coveted flip flops that I want. I have also turned Ele into a flip flop girl. We are already searching for her some cute ones, and I will get Phin too join the flip flop club this summer too.

I HOPE I WIN!!!

My cute friend Hanna is doing another give away on her blog sherbertblossom. She is giving away a $20 gift certificate for baby legs. I LOVE these. Ele has a couple pair that she wears to dance and wears with skirts. I think they are absolutely adorable. I was at a baby shower last night and we were talking about how cute they are. They also show them for boys. I don't know what I think about that, but maybe under a T shirt or something.
Wish me luck! I really hope I win!!!

Happy LATE Birthday to my Sweet Daddy!

Well, I am kind of behind on stuff, but I just wanted to post this any way. Better late than never right?!?!?
It was my sweet dad's birthday a few weeks ago, and I just wanted to tell him HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the best dad and Bapa in the world! I love you so much dad, and I thank you for being such an amazing father and the most fun, silly, adoring grandpa to my kids. Ele and Phin ADORE you. I love spending time with you and them. I had such a great childhood with you and all the fun stuff we did and all the great things you taught me. You are such an inspiration to me and I know my kids will always look up too you as I do. I love to watch you play with Phin and see the smile on his face when he looks at you. Ele loves all the fun things you do with her. She can't stop talking about how you read to her the other day. She loved that. She also can't stop talking about how you were out SKATEBOARDING with the neighbor boys! You really are not an old man! You are such a leader to all the Youth in your ward and have helped so many boys become men, and helped so many youth gain a strong testimony of the church. You have had a HUGE hand in mine that is for sure. I want you to know that I truly love and respect you more than words can ever say. Thanks for being so good to mom and us girls. We are so lucky to have you. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAD!!!