UMMMM, yea, I didn't do it!

So, I thought I should post an update on the tattoo. I haven't done it, and I don't know if I am going to. I have this little conscious telling me I should really think about this PERMANENT decision I am about to make. Oh, and that conscious isn't inside my head, it is Jac. He is my reason, my conscious, my sanity, yada yada. He was all for the Tattoo, until he started thinking. Why does he have to do that?!?!? He is always thinking and analyzing and researching and making the best decisions. NOT me! I fly by the seat of my pants. See a pair of shoes, buy em'. Cost a lot, WHO CARES!! Deal with that later. Not Jac. He will spend hours finding the best of what ever he is purchasing. That is where we are opposites, but it is soooooooooo good for me. We discussed the tattoo thing of where and what to get. Then, in his quiet little way he listens to me, analyzing and thinking, he said the words I had been avoiding the whole week while planning our date and tattooing. "What if Blue comes up to you when she is 16 or 17 and says she wants to get a tattoo like you? What will you say to her? She will remember you getting it, so you can't use the excuse of I was young, I was reckless, don't make the same mistake I made." "But Honey, I am not telling you not to do it, I think you should just think about it."
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH damn it! He did it again. The voice of reason that I try so hard to defy and avoid. Sneaks up on me and SMACKS me right in the face! So, I thought about it, and decided that I would freak out if Ele wanted to get a tattoo on her beautiful little skin because Mommy has one. I am happy with my decision for the time being. Just like the decision to go back to church. I fought it and fought it. But, I am glad I did. Best friends I have made in a long time and I LOVE my ward. Love seeing Ele singing the primary songs and watching Phin in his man suit in nursery playing with his friends. And actually feeling the spirit for the first time in a long time. I am so happy in my life right now, and glad that I actually made an adult decision and didn't just do it and wait and see what happens. STILL want one, and maybe someday I will do it. But for now, I am going to move on to my next obsession. I don't think I will be posting about it until it is accomplished. So, we will see what the future holds. But, I am excited and happier than I have been in a very long time. Love my sweet husband, and adore my kids, and I am looking forward to the warmth and our family trips.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO instead of getting the tattoo, Jac bought me a new set of pots and pans I have been BEGGING for. I LOVE them! I really enjoy cooking and trying new recipes, so it was the PERFECT gift. He and Ele got me flowers as well, and I ordered a Momagenda planner that I have been wanting. I also got the material cutting board and cutter I have been wanting from my parents and my sister. AND to top it all off, My dad fixed my drawer in my kitchen that has been DRIVING ME INSANE! Thanks to all my family and friends who made my day so special. My kiddies had the flu HORRIBlY all week long, so we spent my birthday cleaning up puke and cuddling my sweet babies, but it was a wonderful day. Jac and I eventually got out on a date this past Thursday. We went to Texas Road House for dinner. NEVER again! That place is ridiculous! We just aren't into that loud ANNOYING servers and SCREAMING line dancers kind of place. I almost started drinking again just to make it bearable. HEEEHEEE! We will just stick with our usual Ruby River or Sundance. Then my sweet friend Jes and I went and got a Pedicure Friday night. Pretty feet. YAY!
Thanks again babe for such a wonderful birthday and always being my voice of reason. I love you.