I am feeling pressure. So much pressure that I could be making diamonds some where in my body from all this damn anxiety. So, I thought I would make a HATE list. I don't want to be positive today. I feel like crap emotionally and I am pissy. So, I am making a hate list. I am tired today. Tired of trying to be perfect. Tired of not sleeping. Tired of looking like I do. Tired of running on empty. So here it is. My hate list for today. I am sure I will feel more positive soon, but for today I am feeling in the shitter.
I HATE MY CARPET
I HATE THE WAY I LOOK RIGHT NOW
I HATE MY BOOBS AFTER HAVING BABIES
I HATE THAT I HAVE DEPRESSION
I HATE SELFISH PEOPLE
I HATE PUTTING MY HAND IN SOCKS AND REVERSING THEM WHILE FOLDING LAUNDRY
I HATE MY FLOOR IN THE KITCHEN AND LAUNDRY ROOM
I HATE THE WREATH THAT I AM LOOKING AT RIGHT NOW
I HATE THAT SADIE JUST PEED ON MY RUG AGAIN!
I HATE THAT MY SISTER LIVES SO FAR AWAY
I HATE THAT MY NANA IS GONE
I HATE THAT IF I DON'T GO ON AN OUTING WITH JAC AND THE KIDS THAT I FEEL GULITY WHEN I NEED 5 MINUTES TO BREATH
I HATE THAT 5 MINUTES TO MY SELF WOULD BE GREAT
I HATE THAT I HAVE A SINK FULL OF DISHES AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO THEM
I HATE THAT JAC WORKS SO MUCH
I HATE THAT PEOPLE I LOVE DON'T HAVE WORK BECAUSE THEY LOST THEIR JOB
I HATE THIS ECONOMY CHANGE
I HATE THAT I CAN'T PROTECT ELE ALL DAY AND SMACK MEAN KIDS THAT ARE MEAN TO HER
I HATE MY BACKYARD RIGHT NOW AND THAT STUPID CAT THAT KEEPS PEEING IN OUR SANDBOX
I HATE THESE JEANS I AM WEARING
I REALLY HATE READING BLOGS WHERE PEOPLE FEEL THE NEED TO PRETEND THEY ARE PERFECT WHEN WE ALL KNOW THEY ARE ALL JACKED UP TOO
I HATE CRYING, IT JUST GIVES ME A HEADACHE
I HATE THAT IF I CRY IN FRONT OF MY KIDS THEY THINK SOMETHING IS REALLY WRONG
I HATE THE PILE OF CRAP THAT JAC HAS ON THE SIDE OF THE CHAIR IN THE DINING ROOM
I HATE THAT I NEED TO DUST ALL THE BOOKSHELVES/DESK IN MY ROOM
I HATE THAT JAC ROTATED OUR BED AND NOW MY BED SKIRT IS JACKED UP
I HATE THAT PHIN COLORED ON MY CUTE PILLOWS
I HATE GROCERY SHOPPING
I HATE THAT I NEED TO CLEAN MY BATHROOM UPSTAIRS
I HATE ALL UNORGANIZED CLOSETS IN MY HOUSE
AND I REALLY HATE THAT I AM WRITING THIS HATE LIST BECAUSE IT ISN'T MAKING ME FEEL BETTER
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Making Diamonds
Posted by thescotts at 12:15 PM
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I loved your Hate list Kelly and it was just what I needed in this exact moment in my day. It's so nice to read a blog where someone is hating so many things in there life, but must deal with them anyways. That's how I feel too! Love you!!!!
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I Hate that I couldn't just leave my 1st comment alone because I didn't want you to think I had bad english. Ugh. :)
I love it Kelly! I "HATE" a lot of things too! My husband always thinks I need to cheer up, but I tell him that I hate fake people that put on that fake smile just to look happy.
I LOVE that you are not afraid to be you!! Good job venting. :) We all have hate lists. At least you have the guts to write your's down and post it. :) (I would have chickened out)
I hate that I didn't take the time to get to know you better while we lived just a few houses away. Come see me!
I hate that I don't have more time to be a better friend to you. Let me know if there is anything I can do!
I am going through a super big HATE phase right now too, it must be in the air or bitch week for both of us! Lets hope for a fresh perspective soon, feel better!!!
Writing it down always helps me - so way to go.
WOW I'm right there with you on like 90% of those things. My house, myself, my kids, everything is buggin me. But you should feel better now that you got it out. I feel better just after reading your post.
I've been so hating everything I've been hoping no one that knows me see's me because I know I'm not being normal.
It's good. it's healthy to occasionally hate stuff.
We can't be happy ALL the time. hang in there and know you're not alone.
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