JUST BREATH

That is what I am trying to do right now. Just breath. I am in a bit of a funk, winter and Kelly are not friends:( BUT I am coming out it. I hope. I will be doing some MAJOR blogging this week I PROMISE! Lots of fun stuff to post. Ele and I went to Austin and spent 5 days with Tricia and Tim. WE HAD A BLAST! Lots of Christmas and other fun stuff. Just give me a couple more days to pull my head above the water and breath for a bit, and I will be back in blogging world:D Thoughts and prayers with all of you.
XOXOXOXO

My Christmas

I am feeling a bit Scroogey this holiday season. I guess that is a way of saying I am DOWN this Christmas. This will be the first Christmas without my sweet Nana and I don't know how to handle it I guess. I started decorating my house, and just can't seem to finish. I usually have it all done the weekend after Thanksgiving so we can enjoy it for the whole month of December. I got ALL my Christmas shopping done early thinking that would really help me feel the true spirit of Christmas, but it didn't. I miss so many things about her. I miss talking to her every day, I miss calling her to tell her things that I know will make her happy, I miss the "hello you" on the other end of the phone, I miss going up to see her every few days and having lunch, or taking her Christmas shopping and making her laugh by all my rude comments about people. I miss her smile, I miss her so much it hurts. She was Christmas too me. I don't know how to get past this depression of losing her. I have grieved and cried so much since February, but it is hitting me again. I made egg salad the other day and bawled my eyes out. That was her thing. Egg salad with onions, mayo, and relish on toasted rye bread. I have some of her decorations and I smell them to see if they still smell like her. We were all so blessed to have her for so many Christmas's. I am trying to just be grateful that she is not in pain and she is in a better place, but it is hard when you want to see someone's face so bad it aches. So, to bring my spirits up, I am trying to enjoy every second of this holiday season with my family. I still have my Eleanor, and she is every bit as sweet as Nana. Jac helps me feel better by helping come up with ideas to honor my Nana. She truly was an Angel on this earth and I can't wait to someday hear her say Hello You again. I love and miss you my sweet Nana with all my heart. Merry Christmas.

PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT IN SPANISH FORK

I AM DOING A PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT AT MY SISTER CANDACE'S HOUSE. WE HAVE SOOOOOOOOOO MANY NEW MUST HAVES FOR THE HOLIDAYS, AND REMEMBER THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40! COME!!! THERE IS ALSO GOING TO BE JEWELRY, SCARVES, HEADBANDS, ETC. IT WILL BE WAY FUN!
WED. DEC. 2ND
6:30 TO 8:30 PM - OPEN HOUSE STYLE
email me or leave me a comment if you are interested in coming.
kels2396@yahoo.com

NOOKIE NOOK TIME!!!

OH MY, OH MY!! I am EXTREMELY excited for my anniversary gift from Jac. He gave me the BEST gift for Kelly:D He got me a NOOK!!!!! No, dirty minds, I am not talking about the oh so goodness of lovin, I am talking about my new E book from Barnes and Noble. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to read!! I will read just about anything, and I think people who know me well are a bit shocked when they find out my favorite author is Jane Austen. Of course my favorite book is Pride and Prejudice, I have stated this many a times on my blog, but again, HOW CAN YOU GO WRONG WITH MR DARCY!!! So, I have been dropping hints about the nook and the kindle from amazon for a while now and thought maybe for Christmas? Jac is always a bit hesitant to get me these kinds of gifts and for good reason. I have a way of saying I will use it forever, and am totally bored with it after a week or so. BUT this is going to be the BEST thing!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! He came home from work on our anniversary and asked me if I got him a gift. Me, looking EXTREMELY dumbfounded, said, no, you got your snowboarding pass and I thought you were getting a new board too. So, I hurry and recovered by telling him I bought him his favorite cereal. WHAT A LOSER!!!! I felt like CRAP! So, I thought he was kidding when he asked me if I wanted my gift or if I wanted to wait until we got up to Sundance for dinner. I of course said NOW!!!!! AND, he pulled out a piece of paper. What could it be?!?! It was the receipt for my NOOK!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!! I will be getting it in a couple of weeks and I don't know if I have said this but I am WAY EXCITED!!!
Check them out. They are a bit pricey, but if you read as much as me, it will save you money in the end. LOTS AND LOTS of free books and when you do buy one, they are NEVER more than $9.99. Even the new releases. AND think of all the trees we are saving!!!!! Kind of orgasmic if you ask me!!! So, if you see me at a stop light, or at the gym with this weird giant ipod looking thing, DON'T BOTHER ME!!! I AM probably reading one of Mr. Darcy's epic lines. THANKS JAC!! You are the best, and you can go snowboarding EVERYDAY, wait, you already do that. Oh well! I will be reading on my NOOK!!!! LOVE YOU JAC!

11 YEARS, ARE YOU SURE?!?!?!

Jac and I just celebrated our 11 year wedding anniversary yesterday. WOW! Can't believe it. It doesn't seem that long, but at the same time, I can't remember my life without him. You know? Feels like he has always been in my life. We always tease and say that since we have had such a good run the last 11 years, maybe we should quit while we are good. FUNNY, yet scary to me. It is a little bit of too much reality for me right now. SO many of our dear friends are getting divorced. Heart breaking. I had a panic attack a month or so ago about it. WORRYING that Jac was going to leave me. Lying awake staring at him wondering what it would be like if he wasn't there anymore, dropping the kids off for the weekend and what would I do without all of them around. I of course freaked out in my Kelly way, and cried and "expressed" my feelings too him, and he of course handled it in his oh so Jac, laid back, James Dean way, and laughed at me, then hugged me, and in his LOVING way, reassured me that he is not leaving me. I go through that once in a while. You would to if your husband was a super good looking photographer who works with GORGEOUS models, BUT not going into that. I am not insecure in the least bit, I think God blesses me so I don't lose it all the time, but once in a while I freak out and he brings me down like Xanax. We waited a while to have the kiddies, and REALLY Enjoyed our seven years traveling, hanging with friends, partying, traveling, sleeping, eating, working, sleeping and more sleeping!!! BUT, I wouldn't trade any of that for our two juniors. Well, maybe for some more sleep, BUT, Monkey is actually sleeping better.
Life is so NOT perfect at Casa Scott, but we work. We put up with each others crap and we have our "fun" battles, which I always win, guess working for Attorney's for so long you learn to argue:D Well, okay, I NEVER win, but I like to pretend I do. And the more wrong I am, the LOUDER I argue.
I love Jac with everything I have. He is my joy, my soul, my besty, my confidant, my heart, and most importantly my companion. Love you Budah! Can't wait for the future of us sitting on a HOT Beach somewhere, you surfing, taking pictures or watching birds, while I read Pride and Prejudice over and over on my Nook and judge everyone around me for what they are wearing and their way too tan bodies, and planning my next botox, hair and eyebrow waxing appointments, all while eating some Curry and rice. And at the end of the day, we will be us, and there is nothing better to me. I LOVE YOU, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

PURSE AND NECKLACE PARTY AT MY PLACE!!

I AM HAVING MY LAUNCH SHOW FOR PARADE OF PURSES AT MY HOUSE. THATS RIGHT ALL, I HAVE STARTED A NEW ADVENTURE. DECIDED I NEEDED SOMETHING TO DO TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE, MAKE SOME MONEY SO JAC DOESN'T KEEP TELLING ME TO STOP BUYING STUFF, AND WHAT A BETTER THING FOR KEL TO DO THEN SELL SOMETHING SHE IS OBSESSED WITH!!!! PURSES, PURSES, PURSES!!! I HAVE BEEN TO MANY A PURSE PARTIES AND I LOVE LAROBYN'S STUFF. SHE GETS THE CUTEST BAGS AND THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40. CAN'T BEAT THAT!!
SO COME AND SEE ALL THE MUST HAVES FOR THIS FALL/WINTER, OR JUST COME BOOK YOUR OWN SHOW SO YOU CAN EARN FREE STUFF!!! MY CUTE FRIEND MICHELLE WILL ALSO BE HERE SELLING HER OH SO CUTE NECKLACES.
SO, LOTS OF FOOD, PURSES, AND NECKLACES!!! YOU NEED TO BE HERE!!
NEXT TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 3RD FROM 6:30 TO 8:00, OPEN HOUSE STYLE
EMAIL ME IF YOU NEED MY ADDRESS
KELS2396@YAHOO.COM

TWO OF US DRIVING NO WHERE

Sunday the 11th is my Budah's birthday. WOW! It seems like yesterday we were going on our first date exactly thirteen years ago. We had our first date the week of Jac's birthday. That is why I LOVE Fall so much. The chill in the air, the smell of the leaves and the temperature changing. AHHHHHH!!!
Jac and I have been on MANY road trips together. Gosh, I don't even think I can count them. We LOVE driving together and the anticipation of getting to our destination. Which is usually Southern Cali where we can bake in the sun, well, I can while Jac surfs, and smell the sea air, feel that cool, oh so needed sea spray, and sit and watch some of the most amazing sunsets imaginable.
Every time I hear The Beatles song two of us, I think of me and Jac and our road trips. We LOVE that song and it has kind of become "our" song. We have so many, but that one always makes me smile and think about him and I in the Jetta or the Jeep driving somewhere, or no where at all. We haven't been on too many road trips with the kiddies, but they are getting older and we are planning lots and lots of trips for the future.
Jac is my heart and I LOVE him so much. He works SOOOOOOOOOOO HARD all the time to support our family. He is an AMAZING photographer and has so many other great talents. Oh, and he is so damn good looking it is kind of sick:) I am one lucky girl to have him and I thank him for such a wonderful love and life we have.
This morning I was sitting at the dining room table checking my email and I looked into the kitchen through the little cut out and I started to cry. My sweet Jac and our two adorable kiddies were singing and dancing to Danzig of all things, but we were all together. How did I get so lucky? Why did I get him? How did we get the two of them? I thank God everyday for my sweet little family and all our blessings.
So, to my Budah, which I call him that not because he looks like Budah, but because his motorcycle makes that deep BUDAH BUDAH sound, anyway, to my Budah, I love you with everything I have. You are the most amazing husband, father and best friend a girl could ever ask for and I thank you for loving me. I know it is a challenge sometimes, but we work and I cherish you. Happy BIrthday Jac!!!