KEL'S VERSION OF IT ALL

Amazing Grace

2012-01-25T09:47:00.000-08:00

Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and wondered where do those two little wrinkles in between my eyebrows come from? I do. I found myself staring and pulling at my face the other night after washing my makeup off. "Wow, Kel, you're getting old " I thought. Depression, fear, annoyance set in all at the same time. So, I start planning my botox\filler schedule. Thinking about my plea to Jac why I need it. "I can't look old!" "I already have gray hair babe, don't make me have to walk around with wrinkles too!!!" "I need to lose weight so bad, this will help me feel better about myself." Yep, these are the excuses coming into my head. I am all about beauty. do what you need to do to feel good about yourself. I LOVE makeup and hair dye, and I am NOT against plastic surgery. I would do LOTS and LOTS if I had the money. Just being honest y'all. So, the next thought that passes through my oh so tired mind is, WHY? Why do I have these little dents, wrinkles next to my eyebrows, that I get waxed and groomed every three weeks thank you very much. Well, I am going to share with you why. BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS SCOWLING!!!! Yes, I squint cause I don't wear my glasses and I HATE contacts. My sister makes fun of me for it, BUT the main reason is because I scowl. I have said before that I am a bitch and its true. I am angry, judgmental, snotty, and rude. I am Carrie Heffernan from King of Queens. Its funny yes, and I make my mom laugh hysterically when we're out and I am being my rude self to annoying people, but its now starting to give me INDENTS on my face! Oh no! This has to stop I tell you! STOP!!! I need to stop being mean. But, how do I stop the thoughts in my head? I'll tell you how. Watch your BEAUTIFUL daughter start acting like you and you will stop dead in your tracks. Stop instantly. My sweet Blue. Oh she is so sweet, kind, and fun. But she is starting to be snotty and rude. Why wouldn't she be. She is with me the majority of the time. She yells at me and Phin and I jumped all over her for it. Me, yelling at her for yelling at me or Phin. Really? So not right. I don't want to be that mom. I don't want Ele to be that angry kid. I want her to always shine and smile. My heart hurts while I'm writing this. She is precious. She is a gift from God that I have been entrusted to love, adore, teach and protect but I'm not. I am allowing her to start off her life angry. I have always been full of anger. I feel it non stop. I use to kick holes in walls, break toys, beat the shiz out my sister and now I am allowing it to hurt my kids futures. Wrong. Sad. Terrifying. I'm overwhelmed with distress, fear that they will be dysfunctional, messed up adults. I need to get this crap in check. I suffer from depression, i've complained about it plenty on this here lil' blog of mine. But that is no excuse for hurting my childrens innocence and future. I have been reading my Sis in laws AMAZINGLY honest blog, Angry Mom's in Recovery. She is so honest about her anger and how it affects her life as a mother of four. My other Sis in law also blogs about her journey of recovering from anger issues. They truly are amazing to me and how they're honesty and bravery can help so many of us. They posted about a book called Anger Kills. You can check it out here: Anger Kills. I am so reading this book. Yes, to help with my Scowl dents, but mostly for the three most important peeps in my life. Jac and the minnies. They don't deserve this. I snap at Jac ALL THE TIME! We are and awesome duo, but I have got to be nicer to this man. He truly is a living Angel. No he's not perfect, and he has is "A-hole" moments, (his words) but he is so patient with me. I ADORE my family and will do anything to make their world better. Oh and my wrinkles too:D
So, I am hoping to be better and stop and smell the roses more. Realize I can't control everything even though I sure as hell try.
So, here's to hoping for a nicer Kelly. And too you all for being my friends through it all. I don't know what I would do without you all. I have two of the most AMAZING sisters in the world who hear it all from me and don't judge, They solve the worlds problems with me and we laugh and cry through it all. I am so blessed and need be more appreciative of all of my wonderful bliss.
Cheers friends.

Gratitude.Forgiveness.Humility

2011-11-28T08:22:00.000-08:00

It has been a VERY long time since I have even considered a blog post. I don't know why. Maybe its just that life has just gotten away from me. I don't know. I have had a lot of ideas and have actually started several posts over the last few months, but none of them worked. For me right now I am just grateful to be breathing. Life has gotten even crazier than ever, hard to believe, but it has. The Scott's are here and just treading right now. Trying to figure it all out. But we're good. I have just realized what is important and what is not. And keeping up with the "Jones" is not important. My little family has had its ups and downs this past six months, but we are still happy and stronger for our trials. I have mentioned in the past that I am not a very good church goer, and I have my issues with The Gospel, but I am truly grateful for my Heavenly Father and The Savior. Without them this past several weeks, I wouldn't of made it. Grateful for my Faith and my Family's Faith. I am grateful for The Lord's forgiveness and His love that I feel every second of the day. I have so much to be grateful for, and sometimes things get forced into prospective. I have been so discouraged lately, and at times I don't know what to do to not be. I find Joy in my minnies and my family. Jac is a great support and SO understanding. I am very grateful for him and his Love. I have been so blessed with the best family. I have two of the most loving, sweet, and fun sisters in the world, two Parents that love me no matter what stupid mistakes I make, and love me through them all. They are so understanding and helpful. LOVE to talk to my mom every morning. Sometimes she is what gets me going and kicks me in the butt. My dad. Wow. I don't even know what to say about him. My chest gets all tight and my eyes burn with tears when I think of my sweet Pops. He's a man of few words, but every single word of wisdom he gives me, is exactly what I need to hear. I love them dearly and am so grateful for the guidance and love they still give me everyday. I am also so thankful for my friends. They make me laugh and I enjoy our girls nights.
I know this post will make some of you wonder what this is all about. Its about my life. My crazy boring life. I can't explain what is in my heart right now, but l have experienced some very humbling trials lately. And without them, I don't know where I would be. I know God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but I never knew I would learn so much much from them. I have so much. So much. But I am always thinking I need more. Though its not bad to keep working and want for things. But, for me, it is now more about fulfilling my spiritual wants and needs, and filling those empty hollows in my Soul. Is this making sense? Probably not, but its my rantings and for some reason its making me feel better. I am trying to raise my kids the best I can. It sucks sometimes to watch them go through their trials and struggles. Sucks bad. They are my joy. My light. And my everything.
I guess what it all comes down to for me, is I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to be something I'm not. Tired of trying to keep up. Keep with the "Beer Commercial" life. So what if I like just be at home reading, playing with my kids, making my lists:D I will be me. And that is all I can do. Put God first, and everything will fall into place. Trust in the Lord. Two things I haven't done in a long, LONG time. I just feel like somethings missing in me. Maybe this is it. I don't know. I am content and happy. Just need to feel peace and comfort. I LOVE my husband soooooooooooo much and am so grateful for our 13 year marriage. He's my best friend. Gave me two beautiful babies that bring so much everything into this home. They just radiate Love don't they?!
Hope you are all well, and have Peace. That's my goal for the 2012 year. Peace.

Just because he's away and I kinda miss him. Just kinda

2011-06-08T15:12:00.000-07:00

(this photo was taken by Steven Stone in NYC a year or so ago)

Jac has been away for the last week. For those of you who know us, you know that is nothing compared to how much he travels. BUT, for some reason, this trip has been a hard one. I miss him so much! I always miss him don't get me wrong, but this time I really, really miss him:( Maybe its because I know that he will come home for two days, then leave for a week, then come home from that trip for three days, and then leave AGAIN for two weeks. I don't know. All I know is I miss him, and I think he's pretty swell. He is such a hard working guy who adores us, and we ADORE AND LOVE HIM. Oh, and I think he's pretty cute:D

Please excuse the suckiness!

2011-05-28T14:00:00.000-07:00

Well, I have definitely sucked when it came to this here blog this past couple of months. Wow, life was CRAZY BUSY! I can't believe how quickly April and May have flown by. I think I got some serious whiplash from the speed of it all. I have been bogged down with all the normallcies of mommy and wifeyhood, with a some added stresses. Jac works full time at UVU as their head photographer, goes to school full time, AND runs our side photography business. So, needless to say, I am a solo Mama most of the time. So, when things come to a head, which it seems EVERYTHING did this past two months, I have to endure and do it mostly alone. Which, I don't complain, cuz, I'm a lucky lady that's for sure.
So, I'm gonna give a run down of what has been been going down at Casa Scott.
April -
my birfday. I can say that this was one of my most favorite birthdays of all time. I had such a wonderful day. I spent the day lunching and shopping with my bestie/sistah Candace. We took the minnies to Red Robin ate some Yum food, and then headed over to Sephora in the Provo Mall. NOT the best Sephora, but it did the trick. I got some new makeup that I have been wanting. So AMAZING! I LOVE makeup. I could spend a week in Sephora and still not want to leave. I ended up walking out with Urban Decay Naked eyeshadow palette,

NARS Orgasm blush , and NARS Orgasm lipgloss .

I AM IN LOVE with it all and I use it all everyday!!!
That night my parents watched Ele and Phin, and Jac and I went out to dinner and more shopping. I LOVE my hubs and enjoy every date we get. He surprised me with a new Cannon printer. I have been needing/wanting a new printer for a while, and now I have a GREAT one.
We had Easter the next Sunday and WOW how fun it was. Minnies woke up to some fun Easter bunny baskets with lots and lots of toys, bubbles, gardening stuff, and a little bit of candy. We made a yum breakfast and actually made it to church.
That afternoon we headed over to Gram and Papa's for a fun Easter egg hunt with my Sis and her family and had a great dinner. It was a wonderful Easter.
The rest of the month of April was filled with lots and lots of play dates with friends, cleaning, school parties, family activities, dinner parties with friends, and lots and lots of CLEANING! Did I mention cleaning? hehehe! My house and my family are such a huge priority to me, and at times I have neglected them. I have decided to make sure I put my family and our humble abode at the top of my list, and I have to say, its paying off. I LOVE things organized and pretty. So, its been a work in progress with a huge payoff for me and my family.

May -
Well, lets just say this months has been ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!!! I have had to really reorganize my schedule and find time to get it ALL done. We had lots and lots of school activities, and with me being the Room Mom for Ele's class, I had lots of obligations. I really enjoy crafting/creating stuff, so it was fun to get to make Mrs. T. her candy gram poster, plan a little party for her to present a thank you gift from her kids and parents. It was great to see her so excited. We have been so lucky to have such a great Kindergarten teacher for Ele. She will forever be in our family and we love her.
Mothers Day was a great day. I got to sleep in, NICE! Jac and the Minnies made me breakfast in bed and cards. We had a great day of staying home in Jammies and watching lots of Nascar:D We then went to visit our Mom's. We are both so blessed to have such fabulous moms and we love them both sooooooooooooooo much!!
We had lots and lots of dance rehearsals for Ele's dance concert with Jive. She did an AMAZING job. We are so proud of our little dancer. She and her class danced to "Boogie Shoes". so cute! BUT, I am so glad dance is over until August. Something about this year just bothered me and took a lot out of us all.
We have also been spending most days working on Potty time with Phin. Happy to report HE IS COMPLETELY POTTY TRAINED!!! YAY!! No more dipes for this house. We have been buying diapers for 6 years, and are very excited for the extra $50 a month. We are all so proud of him. He has done so good and is really proud of being a big boy!

The last part of May was just crazy! We had End of year party at school, kindergarten graduation, getting the house back in working/clean condition. I HATE my house a mess. It makes me ornery and I can't function. We had been in and out so much, that things just got out of hand. We also had A LOT to get ready for Jac to leave for pretty much the entire month of June:/ He is spending this week and half in Samoa, then he'll come home for a few days, take of to Wyoming for a week, then come home for seriously three days, and then take of to New York for two weeks:D All the craziness of being Jac's wife.
So, all wrapped up, We had a busy April and May. We are ready for some WARM weather and some summer fun. Ele starts her summer school program this next week, and we are all so excited for that! Something for her to do two days a week for three hours. Swim lessons are on the agenda as well, and lots and lots of camping, California, dinner parties, swimming, and lots of family time.
Apologies for my sucky blogging and a promise to do better this month.
Loves

BIRCHIN' TIME!

2011-03-18T12:11:00.000-07:00

No, this is not a typo. I meant "birchin" not "bitchin". I am sure most of you would not be surprised to see me "bitching" about something on this here blog, but I'M NOT THIS TIME!
I am so EXCITED to share my birch box with you all. My sweet girly friend Hannah over at Sherbet Blossom , posted about birch box a few weeks ago, and I fell in LOVE! SAMPLES of beauty products!! They come in a pretty PINK BOX! Are you kidding me?!? I am so in. So, I signed up and got my first one the other day. I LOVE it! So much fun. It was like Christmas and my birthday:D It's $10 a month and you get samples, GOOD SAMPLES!
I got :
- full size lip balm that is worth $12 itself, by Pangea Organics - NEW FAVORITE lip balm for sure
- facial cream with ginger, lavender, and thyme by Pangea Organics - smells WONDERFUL!
- self tanning face pads by Dr. Dennis Gross, suppose to be amazing
- tooth paste by Marvis, it tastes great!(missing from photo, Jac took it on his trip this weekend)
- a mask packed with antioxidants by Alchimie Forever - can't wait to use this!
- free song download by a new artist
- and a brow brush
It Comes once a month in a pretty pink box, when you open that box, you get yet ANOTHER box, ooooooooooooooh! so pretty! And it is all wrapped in pink tissue paper, with a little card explaining all the products. AND you earn 10 points for every box you get which earns you $ off when your order off their website. ITS WONDERFUL and perfect for the girly girl in your life. I LOVE make up, skin products, brushes, nail polish and just about anything girly, and if it comes in a funky\pretty package, even better. Check, check it out!!!

HOW'S ABOUT A LITTLE MARCH MADNESS!!

2011-03-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

That is all there is to call March around these here parts. MADNESS!! Ele came home from school the other day and told me that March comes in like a lion and out like a lamb. I sure hope so! I know that saying is speaking about the weather, but I've decided that March is my unlucky month. Screw the luck of the Irish! I have no such thing.
So, with that "positive" outlook, here are my 5 picks for the month of March. Ta da! Let's hope the month of April will be much luckier. After all, it is my birthday month:D

My Camera!! OH HOW I LOVE IT!!! It is AMAZING! It really pays off to be married to a AMAZING photographer. I get all his "old" cameras. Jac gets a new camera as soon as the next one comes out, and I get the used hand me downs. heeeheee!

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I LOVE my Nook. It is probably the greatest gift Jac has ever gotten me. I read non stop. You can get a new book within seconds and they are usually cheaper than getting them at any bookstore and even Costco. AND you don't have all those books piling up.

This saying says it all! I am addicted to Diet Coke. I LOVE IT! I prefer Sonic's with Lime, but will take it any way I can get it. I'll even drink it warm for crying out loud!

NAIL POLISH!! I LOVE getting Manni and Pedi's!!! Best thing ever! So relaxing and who doesn't like pretty hands and feet. I go as often as I can. But, if I can't get out for a treat, I do my own and O.P.I. is the best brand of nail polish. So smooth and pretty colors! If you use their base/top coat, it last pretty long too:D

And, my favorite thing EVER! My blackberry! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!! Jac has an Iphone and I prefer my blackberry over it any day. Too each his own, but I prefer the blackberry. So convenient. I love having the keypad and I LOVE the calendaring system. Helps me to be more organized

PNEUMONIA WHAT?!

2011-02-26T12:26:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I have Pneumonia. Seriously? I can't believe this. I started feeling a cold coming on a week or so ago. Typical around here. It's cold winter and with two kids having play dates, going to school, and all the other stuff, its bound to happen right? Right. Well, this past Tuesday Ele stayed home from school. She had been awake a lot the night before with a stuffy nose and a headache. So I decided to keep her home to rest. That is when I started to feel a bit worse than a cold was coming on. Of course being Kelly, I ignored it all and went on with my usual life. I ABSOLUTELY HATE going to the doctor, and will avoid going at all costs. Well, I sure ignored this, and now I am paying HUGELY for it. I went to the doctor yesterday, Friday, because I was having a hard time doing ANYTHING. Walking up the stairs was like running a marathon. I would see stars and start passing out once I reached the top. PATHETIC! So, I took the advice of the all knowing Jac, (well, he thinks he's the all knowing, I think he's the ANNOYING:D) and called the Doc. Too make A LONG doctor visit story short, and hour check up, and X-ray later, I was told to go home, take the Antibiotics, drink lots of fluids, and REST, REST, REST!!! Basically, I neglected a virus and it settled into Pneumonia. The X-ray showed fluid in the lower part of my lungs, and I guess that's not good. Needless to say, I am taking it easy. I HATE it! I don't like being told I have to stay home and take it easy. I didn't do it well when I was Preggers with Phin and was placed on moderate bed rest at the end of the pregnancy, and I am not handling this well either. I feel like crap and have ZERO energy, so sitting down is a must, but I am pretty pissy about it. I feel for Jac and the Minnies because I am so grouchy! Thank GOD for Real housewives of every city on Bravo and all my other CRAP TV I love. Good thing for my laptop, blackberry, and my Nook. I am trying to just keep busy and not yell and get to mad at the messes made by the kids and Jac. So, I will hopefully be back to my normal energetic, bitchy self in a few days. If not, I will be BITCHING here more.
Let's pray for my little families sake that I have a quick recovery.

I LIKE STUFF!!!

2011-01-29T08:42:00.000-08:00

GADGETS, SHOES, PURSES, EARRINGS, VACUUMS, and on and on!! I LOVE stuff! Lots and lots of stuff. I am a shopper. This is no news to my family. I LOVE to buy new stuff! Shoes are probably my biggest weakness, with purses a close second, but I think as I get older, so do my obsessions. I have a slight obsession with gadgets. Just a slight one. I LOVE kitchen appliances, my blackberry, ipods, my nook, my laptop, my vacuum, H2o mop, and so much more.
So, I decided to do a once a month post on my must haves for the month. A post on things I have been loving and using, or have come across that I think I would like to have. I am not a very good money saver. I actually suck at it. Confession, so does Jac. We are terrible with money and our finances. We are lucky we can have everything automatically taken out of our bank account, or nothing would ever get paid.:D Its a very bad trait, and we both have it. It is one of my personal goals that I am working on.
I have to brag and boast for a minute. We have NO car payments!! WAHOO!!!!!! First time in our relationship. It feels so nice. Even though my wagon has had problems, I love it! I want a new car, probably an SUV, but I am going to stick with my VW until it won't run anymore. Save some money and then get the car I really want. But not having a car payment at all, Such a great accomplishment. It makes me so happy! Oh and the money we are saving monthly, well, that is the BEST PART:D
Any who, here are 5 of my favorites this month. Enjoy!

BEST Mascara EVER! It really makes my lashes look longer and thicker. NO CLUMPS either.

I am a lipgloss girl. I do not like lipstick. I can never find a color I like, and it feels funny on my lips. This lip gloss from Victoria Secret is my Fave. It conditions and heals your lips. Smells good too, and comes in such a cute tin:D

This Thurmos water bottle is the GREATEST water bottle. I love the spout, and with the little lever, it doesn't leak in my purse.
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The Eddie Bauer car seat protector is AMAZING! I use these for the Minnies car seats. They protect the leather in my car, and they have great little mesh pockets for their stuff.

AND last but not least, My Blendtec. This is THE GREATEST appliance I have ever owned! I LOVE it! It makes soup, ice cream, grinds wheat, and on and on. Want to see more, go to Costco and watch their Demo.

2011, will it be better than 2010?!

2011-01-18T19:35:00.000-08:00

I have been sitting around the last few weeks thinking of my next blog post. I have so much to catch up on. Oh sooooooooooooooo much! So much that I was stressing out about it. So I decided to just start fresh with the New Year, and let the stress go. I am not a big fan of resolutions. I know a lot of people say that, but I don't like them. I totally defeat before I even begin. So I have decided to just stick with a few goals, and one of them happens to be a more productive and POSITIVE person.Not focus so much on the negative in my life, because I do. I am going to try and enjoy each moment and make the best of my days.
A lot of my negativity is my lack of exercise which causes me a lack of energy and causes me to stay in the depths of this negative, depressive state. I AM DONE!!! I am 32 years old and refuse to become a victim to myself anymore. I have made some changes in my life and am refusing to be this FAT ASS person anymore! And, with the help and support of my sweetest sisters, and my rock Jac, I know I will get to where I want to be. I think blogging weekly on my success will help me stay on the right path. I feel like crap 90% of the time, ad its all just a lack of discipline. I have so many changes to make, and can honestly say that I am so excited for the hard work and the results. I will NOT be posting pics, but I am sure you all have seen my fat ass around, so I don't think I need to anyway. I am so sick of feeling insecure when I run into an old friends, and just sick of looking at myself. But, mostly, I want to be a better example for my minnies. Eating right and exercising is just life, and I haven't been showing them that. I don't want them missing out on fun activities because their mom doesn't want to do it because she might be embarrassed of being seen. That is exactly what I did last summer. Hide, Oh, and a big F YOU to you A - hole I went to high school with that thought it was oh so funny to take pictures of me with your cell phone at the pool last summer, SUCK IT! You are a terrible person! You might be skinny and have fake boobs, but you are an ugly person inside. I hope you read this and know that I pitty you. You know why.
Ok, that's off my chest. Ahhhhh! I feel much better now.
Back to the goals. Here they are, the final ones. I thought and thought about them, and these are it! I am happy with them, and will be doing my damnedest to accomplish each and everyone of them.
- be positive and NICE to all. (this one will be hard for me, harder than the weightloss!)
- back to a heathly weight and lifestyle
- boob job (yes all, I want\need one bad!! And my girls need to be back where they were pre minnies:D)
-house all painted
-house all organized
-wood floors laid in family\dining room and kitchen area
-and last but certainly not least, run a 10k in October. I want to be able to run the freedom run in July if my damn knee cooperates. We'll see, but for sure a 10k in October.
Also, I am trying to post more on my blog. Pics of our family and all the super fun activities we do. We DO A LOT of stuff, and I am so bad about posting about it all. So, there will be lots more on our family fun and vacations. I am truly a blessed lady. These two crazy blond hair blue eyed Angels keep me busy, and I LOVE every minute of it. Jac is such a wonderful father. We have our moments of disagreement, but I couldn't be luckier. He is so supportive of me and truly is my sunshine. Oh, and he is pretty damn good looking and is HILARIOUS!!! We have a good life, and I need to be more grateful and show it. So this is my journey, giddee up!!

OH DEAR GOD! BAREFOOT IN WALLYWORLD!!!

2010-11-15T20:42:00.001-08:00

So, I have come to an understanding with myself. My last post stated that I was in a funk, and bitchy, or in the shitter I think its what it said. But, over the last couple of months since that post, I have realized that I am just out and out bitchy! I am. I wasn't in a funk, I am just truly a Carrie Heffernan.(If you don't know who Carrie Hefferenan is, shame on you and I don't think we can't be friends.) I am a super happy person, I love my sweet family, I truly enjoy life, but I get so ornery and sick and tired of things. Just ask the Hubs. He is a bit scared of me at times. A day of errands with me can be some what of an adventure or HELL as he or Candace my sweet sister would say. Just ask her about one of our Park City trips when I almost ran down a pedestrian for giving me a dirty look. Yes, its true. My blood sugar was low and the woman was just nasty! my mother thinks I am HILARIOUS and I can make her wet her pants in three seconds flat at times. But, to some, I am just a handful to be with. I can't let things go. If something is bothering me, I just keep going and going. For example, if you want to see me in full swing, take me to Walmart. I have a love\hate relationship with WALLYWORLD! I just can't stop myself from indulging in it's sweet frugalness and sales, but yet, I get so damn mad at all the insane ignorance that is there. Today, I seriously saw a woman walking around with her shoes off and stored under her cart. She and her whatever HE\SHE was, were groping up and down the bread isle. AND she didn't have any shoes on!! Why? I couldn't help but stare for quite some time. See, that is also a negative with me. I don't care if you see me watching you with such a disgusted look of horror on my face. She looked at me straight in the eye, and I seriously shook my head at her and looked her up and down. AND I DIDN'T CARE!! I so wanted to walk up to her and ask her why on earth would she ever walk around Walmart barefoot! I am sorry, but that is just absolutely terrifying!
Any who, I am just going to come to grips with my true self. My posts may be more "Kellyish" than they have been in the past. My whole world revolves around two blonde hair, blue eyed Angels, that for some reason still love me. Disfunction and all. They and Jac are my heart and they make me smile, laugh and cry all at the same time. So, enjoy my new take on life and blogging. There will still be updates on what is going on here in our house of craziness, but for the most part, this blog is about what goes on in my eccentric foggy head. So, enjoy the crazy train folks!

Making Diamonds

2010-09-18T12:15:00.000-07:00

I am feeling pressure. So much pressure that I could be making diamonds some where in my body from all this damn anxiety. So, I thought I would make a HATE list. I don't want to be positive today. I feel like crap emotionally and I am pissy. So, I am making a hate list. I am tired today. Tired of trying to be perfect. Tired of not sleeping. Tired of looking like I do. Tired of running on empty. So here it is. My hate list for today. I am sure I will feel more positive soon, but for today I am feeling in the shitter.

I HATE MY CARPET
I HATE THE WAY I LOOK RIGHT NOW
I HATE MY BOOBS AFTER HAVING BABIES
I HATE THAT I HAVE DEPRESSION
I HATE SELFISH PEOPLE
I HATE PUTTING MY HAND IN SOCKS AND REVERSING THEM WHILE FOLDING LAUNDRY
I HATE MY FLOOR IN THE KITCHEN AND LAUNDRY ROOM
I HATE THE WREATH THAT I AM LOOKING AT RIGHT NOW
I HATE THAT SADIE JUST PEED ON MY RUG AGAIN!
I HATE THAT MY SISTER LIVES SO FAR AWAY
I HATE THAT MY NANA IS GONE
I HATE THAT IF I DON'T GO ON AN OUTING WITH JAC AND THE KIDS THAT I FEEL GULITY WHEN I NEED 5 MINUTES TO BREATH
I HATE THAT 5 MINUTES TO MY SELF WOULD BE GREAT
I HATE THAT I HAVE A SINK FULL OF DISHES AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO THEM
I HATE THAT JAC WORKS SO MUCH
I HATE THAT PEOPLE I LOVE DON'T HAVE WORK BECAUSE THEY LOST THEIR JOB
I HATE THIS ECONOMY CHANGE
I HATE THAT I CAN'T PROTECT ELE ALL DAY AND SMACK MEAN KIDS THAT ARE MEAN TO HER
I HATE MY BACKYARD RIGHT NOW AND THAT STUPID CAT THAT KEEPS PEEING IN OUR SANDBOX
I HATE THESE JEANS I AM WEARING
I REALLY HATE READING BLOGS WHERE PEOPLE FEEL THE NEED TO PRETEND THEY ARE PERFECT WHEN WE ALL KNOW THEY ARE ALL JACKED UP TOO
I HATE CRYING, IT JUST GIVES ME A HEADACHE
I HATE THAT IF I CRY IN FRONT OF MY KIDS THEY THINK SOMETHING IS REALLY WRONG
I HATE THE PILE OF CRAP THAT JAC HAS ON THE SIDE OF THE CHAIR IN THE DINING ROOM
I HATE THAT I NEED TO DUST ALL THE BOOKSHELVES/DESK IN MY ROOM
I HATE THAT JAC ROTATED OUR BED AND NOW MY BED SKIRT IS JACKED UP
I HATE THAT PHIN COLORED ON MY CUTE PILLOWS
I HATE GROCERY SHOPPING
I HATE THAT I NEED TO CLEAN MY BATHROOM UPSTAIRS
I HATE ALL UNORGANIZED CLOSETS IN MY HOUSE

AND I REALLY HATE THAT I AM WRITING THIS HATE LIST BECAUSE IT ISN'T MAKING ME FEEL BETTER

LIFE. LOVE. PEACE

2010-08-01T10:51:00.000-07:00

I am feeling very unstable right now. I don't like making big decisions, it makes me feel too grown up. So life is a bit lumpy for me right now. But, in the midst of all this "LIFE", I can't help but be grateful. Jac is on a trip. Which usually means me feeling a bit weepy and anxious on the first day he is gone. He has been traveling since the day we got married, and I have to say that I am use to it, but it still isn't easy. And it doesn't help that he is out of the country which means I can't text him or call him whenever I want, and that makes me feel very uneasy. Also, I am PSYCHO! I sit and think of HORRIBLE scenario's all day. Seriously. I am sitting here right now thinking that he is going to get kidnapped by some Peruvian Gorilla and placed in a hole in the ground, with a single light bulb hanging/swaying above his head, and bugs and rats crawling all over him, and I am going to have to go all Meg Ryan and fly to Peru and find him, all the while fighting the urge to fall in LUST with Russell Crowe. Oh wait, that wouldn't happen because Russell Crowe really isn't a PI, and eww, he's gross anyway. Maybe if it was Wenworth Miller or Channing Tatum. Sorry, totally of course! But still, I hate when he is out of the country and it really doesn't help that I read to many books and watch way to many movies:D So, the whole reason for this post is I am feeling very protective/grateful for my family today. My Sis is in town and that is SO GREAT! We have been doing lots of laughing, shopping, eating, drinking, shopping, and just talking. Loudly of course! It is so nice to see her and catch up. I LOVE being with my fam and reminiscing about the good old days when I made all their lives a living hell:D Well, I think I still do, but I try to make a few better decisions, and plus I married Jac and had two babies for them so I think I have a few brownie points to out weigh the boo points.
My minnies and Jac are my whole life. I eat, sleep and breath them. My mind never stops thinking about what I need to do to be a better mom and wife. Getting Ele ready for Kindergarten:( making sure the kids have a fun summer, take care of my sweet budah who works WAY too much, AND trying to keep Phin from destroying everything in his path. WOW! Who new boys could be so much harder to raise then girls. just this past month he has lost my Itouch, single handedly dirtied up the carpets that I just had cleaned, and now his bedroom too. (We are investing in our own carpet cleaner this week) AND he just decided to color all over the screen of my nook. WOW! He is a tornado, AND l have learned so much about how you really can't take your eyes off of him for 1 second. That has a whole new meaning. But, All in all, my life is full. Full of LIFE, LOVE and PEACE. This picture just says it all. This is my favorite view. Better than any beach, sunset, Christian Louboutin shoes, Coach purses, photos of Channing Tatum:D This is my Peace. This is my piece of Heaven in this crappy world. The man who stole my heart and gives me PEACE, my Blue who makes our house shine and gives me LOVE. Monkey who keeps me on my toes and makes me laugh and has brought a whole new meaning to the word LIFE. AND last but certainly not least, that little brown lump on the couch. Our Sadie Sky. She has been a part of this insane family from the beginning. She is our first baby, and brings all this LIFE LOVE and PEACE altogether. My family is my favorite and my best, and I want life to freeze and stay just like this Photo. Them all here in the house, not aging, not traveling, not doing anything but being together. Always and always together.

Ele's Preschool Grad

2010-07-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

Well, I know I said in my last post that I am a SUCKY blogger lately. But, I am trying to get caught up. So, I will keep going and get all our stuff on here.
Next we have Ele's preschool graduation. I can honestly say that I think we found an Angel on the earth with our Ms. Cathy at Moonbeam preschool. I have tears in my eyes as I am typing this. Oh how we miss her. Her smile, her laugh, and seeing Ele light up as she ran up that walk way and saw her most trusted Ms. Cathy. I have major trust issues with my children and leaving them with people. Seriously, I am a basket case when Jac and I go on a date and the minnies are with my parents or anyone for that matter. They are my heart and my whole world and I learned after many years working in child protection to never trust anyone with your kids, and always ALWAYS be on guard. BUT, whenever I dropped Ele off to Ms. Cathy, I had this peaceful feeling and just pure trust for this woman. She and Ele bonded immediately and I knew there would forever be a friendship. I don't know what I will do all this next year without seeing her. Phin is already on the list for the Fall of 2011 classes with her. She is honestly the best preschool teacher I have ever met and we truly love her as one of our own. Ele learned so much at preschool and blossomed so much. She memorized every poem and often was the first one to pass them off. She learned all about things that she still talks about and still sings all the fun little songs that Ms. Cathy so wittily wrote. She really did a great job preparing Ele for Kindergarten and we thank her for that. Ele LOVES all the new friends she made at school and has forever friendships from this past year. We LOVE you Ms. Cathy.
XOXOXOXOXO

SUCKY BLOGGER'S CATCH UP TIME!!!

2010-07-08T15:41:00.000-07:00

Well, I have a been a sucky blogger lately. Life has been INSANE around here. So much going on. Jac has basically been living in New York City for the last three weeks:( He will be home in a week and then may be off to Peru. We will see. Lots and lots of traveling for my Hubs. We love and miss him every second of the day, but we have been keeping busy. I don't really know where to start my catch up, so I decided to start with Ele's dance recital. She has been dancing with Jive for a couple of years and LOVES it! This is her second summer recital with them. She did FANTASTIC! She is quite the little dancer and we are so proud of her. Here are a few pics of her and her cute friends. We didn't get too many still shots of her on stage, and the video is quite long to post, so I am just posting these few shots.

UMMMM, yea, I didn't do it!

2010-04-18T15:56:00.000-07:00

So, I thought I should post an update on the tattoo. I haven't done it, and I don't know if I am going to. I have this little conscious telling me I should really think about this PERMANENT decision I am about to make. Oh, and that conscious isn't inside my head, it is Jac. He is my reason, my conscious, my sanity, yada yada. He was all for the Tattoo, until he started thinking. Why does he have to do that?!?!? He is always thinking and analyzing and researching and making the best decisions. NOT me! I fly by the seat of my pants. See a pair of shoes, buy em'. Cost a lot, WHO CARES!! Deal with that later. Not Jac. He will spend hours finding the best of what ever he is purchasing. That is where we are opposites, but it is soooooooooo good for me. We discussed the tattoo thing of where and what to get. Then, in his quiet little way he listens to me, analyzing and thinking, he said the words I had been avoiding the whole week while planning our date and tattooing. "What if Blue comes up to you when she is 16 or 17 and says she wants to get a tattoo like you? What will you say to her? She will remember you getting it, so you can't use the excuse of I was young, I was reckless, don't make the same mistake I made." "But Honey, I am not telling you not to do it, I think you should just think about it."
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH damn it! He did it again. The voice of reason that I try so hard to defy and avoid. Sneaks up on me and SMACKS me right in the face! So, I thought about it, and decided that I would freak out if Ele wanted to get a tattoo on her beautiful little skin because Mommy has one. I am happy with my decision for the time being. Just like the decision to go back to church. I fought it and fought it. But, I am glad I did. Best friends I have made in a long time and I LOVE my ward. Love seeing Ele singing the primary songs and watching Phin in his man suit in nursery playing with his friends. And actually feeling the spirit for the first time in a long time. I am so happy in my life right now, and glad that I actually made an adult decision and didn't just do it and wait and see what happens. STILL want one, and maybe someday I will do it. But for now, I am going to move on to my next obsession. I don't think I will be posting about it until it is accomplished. So, we will see what the future holds. But, I am excited and happier than I have been in a very long time. Love my sweet husband, and adore my kids, and I am looking forward to the warmth and our family trips.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO instead of getting the tattoo, Jac bought me a new set of pots and pans I have been BEGGING for. I LOVE them! I really enjoy cooking and trying new recipes, so it was the PERFECT gift. He and Ele got me flowers as well, and I ordered a Momagenda planner that I have been wanting. I also got the material cutting board and cutter I have been wanting from my parents and my sister. AND to top it all off, My dad fixed my drawer in my kitchen that has been DRIVING ME INSANE! Thanks to all my family and friends who made my day so special. My kiddies had the flu HORRIBlY all week long, so we spent my birthday cleaning up puke and cuddling my sweet babies, but it was a wonderful day. Jac and I eventually got out on a date this past Thursday. We went to Texas Road House for dinner. NEVER again! That place is ridiculous! We just aren't into that loud ANNOYING servers and SCREAMING line dancers kind of place. I almost started drinking again just to make it bearable. HEEEHEEE! We will just stick with our usual Ruby River or Sundance. Then my sweet friend Jes and I went and got a Pedicure Friday night. Pretty feet. YAY!
Thanks again babe for such a wonderful birthday and always being my voice of reason. I love you.

Tats and brats!

2010-04-05T17:16:00.001-07:00

K, so I have been thinking about getting a tattoo for YEARS! I mean YEARS. In high school I wanted my boyfriends name on my wrist, glad I didn't do that:D Then, I wanted the other boyfriends baseball number on the back of neck, REALLY glad I didn't do that. And now I am REALLY wanting to get one. I am turning 32 this Friday and have decided to just do it. It's my body and I am 32 freaking years old, and my dad is getting to old to chase me down and scrub it off with an SOS scrubber right?!?! Well, probably not. He is in damn good shape for his age, BUT I don't think he would like to make a scene with his two beautiful grandchildren that I bore present, well at least I hope he wouldn't. I have always been his little defiant, bratty girl so I am sure he won't be surprised.
NOW here is the dilemma. Where to get it? Not the ink shop, but the place on my body that I am going to be happy with it for the rest of my life. So, when I am wrinkly and old I will still like it. I have debated on getting on my foot, but like I have mentioned in a previous post, I am a flip flop junkie and I heard they tend to need to be touched up more often when rubbed all the time by the flip flop. That is still my number one spot. Then there is my wrist. LOVE the wrist tattoos. I was thinking of getting SCOTT for our last name, but I went out with a guy named Scott in high school, HORRIBLE boyfriend, and I hope that people wouldn't think it was from when I dated him. BLAH! So, if I do the wrist tat I was thinking of three stars. One for my Jac, one for Ele and the other for Phin. OR my kids names on my left wrist. OR on my neck right under my hair line is another option. I am still trying to decide what to get and where. Such a big deal. BUT I really really want one and I am tired of worrying about what the ward folks and the in laws and my parents will think. I am Kelly and damn it! I am doing it! SO, stay tuned because I am planning on doing it this weekend for my birthday. pictures to come. Feel free to leave your comments on what your opinions are. I don't care if you criticize me, I am still going to do it, so please speak your mind. That is where I am a brat and don't give a RATS:D
Well, I am sure I will also be posting my daddy's HUGE steal blue eyes glaring at me, but we will see:D

TO MY SWEET VALENTINE

2010-02-14T09:46:00.000-08:00

My sweet Jac is clear across the world today shooting. It is our first Valentines Day in 13 years apart:( We LOVE Valentines Day! Jac was the first guy I ever dated who made Valentines special for me. Well, made anything special form me. I LOVE and miss him beyond belief. He has been gone for almost two weeks. I can't wait to see him on Wednesday. Love you babe. You are my best friend and I am so happy to spend FOREVER with you:D So, I am dedicating the song my best friend by Tim McGraw to him. There is no other song on the earth that I can think of that fits us perfectly. Jac is NOT a huge country music fan, but he does LOVE Tim! So, to you my sweet heart and valentine. I love you.
XOXOXOXO

I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend (my best friend)
You're my best friend (my best friend)

JUST BREATH

2009-12-31T10:11:00.000-08:00

That is what I am trying to do right now. Just breath. I am in a bit of a funk, winter and Kelly are not friends:( BUT I am coming out it. I hope. I will be doing some MAJOR blogging this week I PROMISE! Lots of fun stuff to post. Ele and I went to Austin and spent 5 days with Tricia and Tim. WE HAD A BLAST! Lots of Christmas and other fun stuff. Just give me a couple more days to pull my head above the water and breath for a bit, and I will be back in blogging world:D Thoughts and prayers with all of you.
XOXOXOXO

My Christmas

2009-12-10T11:08:00.001-08:00

I am feeling a bit Scroogey this holiday season. I guess that is a way of saying I am DOWN this Christmas. This will be the first Christmas without my sweet Nana and I don't know how to handle it I guess. I started decorating my house, and just can't seem to finish. I usually have it all done the weekend after Thanksgiving so we can enjoy it for the whole month of December. I got ALL my Christmas shopping done early thinking that would really help me feel the true spirit of Christmas, but it didn't. I miss so many things about her. I miss talking to her every day, I miss calling her to tell her things that I know will make her happy, I miss the "hello you" on the other end of the phone, I miss going up to see her every few days and having lunch, or taking her Christmas shopping and making her laugh by all my rude comments about people. I miss her smile, I miss her so much it hurts. She was Christmas too me. I don't know how to get past this depression of losing her. I have grieved and cried so much since February, but it is hitting me again. I made egg salad the other day and bawled my eyes out. That was her thing. Egg salad with onions, mayo, and relish on toasted rye bread. I have some of her decorations and I smell them to see if they still smell like her. We were all so blessed to have her for so many Christmas's. I am trying to just be grateful that she is not in pain and she is in a better place, but it is hard when you want to see someone's face so bad it aches. So, to bring my spirits up, I am trying to enjoy every second of this holiday season with my family. I still have my Eleanor, and she is every bit as sweet as Nana. Jac helps me feel better by helping come up with ideas to honor my Nana. She truly was an Angel on this earth and I can't wait to someday hear her say Hello You again. I love and miss you my sweet Nana with all my heart. Merry Christmas.

PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT IN SPANISH FORK

2009-12-02T07:53:00.000-08:00

I AM DOING A PARADE OF PURSES SHOW TONIGHT AT MY SISTER CANDACE'S HOUSE. WE HAVE SOOOOOOOOOO MANY NEW MUST HAVES FOR THE HOLIDAYS, AND REMEMBER THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40! COME!!! THERE IS ALSO GOING TO BE JEWELRY, SCARVES, HEADBANDS, ETC. IT WILL BE WAY FUN!
WED. DEC. 2ND
6:30 TO 8:30 PM - OPEN HOUSE STYLE
email me or leave me a comment if you are interested in coming.
kels2396@yahoo.com

NOOKIE NOOK TIME!!!

2009-11-23T18:42:00.000-08:00

OH MY, OH MY!! I am EXTREMELY excited for my anniversary gift from Jac. He gave me the BEST gift for Kelly:D He got me a NOOK!!!!! No, dirty minds, I am not talking about the oh so goodness of lovin, I am talking about my new E book from Barnes and Noble. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to read!! I will read just about anything, and I think people who know me well are a bit shocked when they find out my favorite author is Jane Austen. Of course my favorite book is Pride and Prejudice, I have stated this many a times on my blog, but again, HOW CAN YOU GO WRONG WITH MR DARCY!!! So, I have been dropping hints about the nook and the kindle from amazon for a while now and thought maybe for Christmas? Jac is always a bit hesitant to get me these kinds of gifts and for good reason. I have a way of saying I will use it forever, and am totally bored with it after a week or so. BUT this is going to be the BEST thing!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! He came home from work on our anniversary and asked me if I got him a gift. Me, looking EXTREMELY dumbfounded, said, no, you got your snowboarding pass and I thought you were getting a new board too. So, I hurry and recovered by telling him I bought him his favorite cereal. WHAT A LOSER!!!! I felt like CRAP! So, I thought he was kidding when he asked me if I wanted my gift or if I wanted to wait until we got up to Sundance for dinner. I of course said NOW!!!!! AND, he pulled out a piece of paper. What could it be?!?! It was the receipt for my NOOK!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!! I will be getting it in a couple of weeks and I don't know if I have said this but I am WAY EXCITED!!!
Check them out. They are a bit pricey, but if you read as much as me, it will save you money in the end. LOTS AND LOTS of free books and when you do buy one, they are NEVER more than $9.99. Even the new releases. AND think of all the trees we are saving!!!!! Kind of orgasmic if you ask me!!! So, if you see me at a stop light, or at the gym with this weird giant ipod looking thing, DON'T BOTHER ME!!! I AM probably reading one of Mr. Darcy's epic lines. THANKS JAC!! You are the best, and you can go snowboarding EVERYDAY, wait, you already do that. Oh well! I will be reading on my NOOK!!!! LOVE YOU JAC!

11 YEARS, ARE YOU SURE?!?!?!

2009-11-20T12:12:00.000-08:00

Jac and I just celebrated our 11 year wedding anniversary yesterday. WOW! Can't believe it. It doesn't seem that long, but at the same time, I can't remember my life without him. You know? Feels like he has always been in my life. We always tease and say that since we have had such a good run the last 11 years, maybe we should quit while we are good. FUNNY, yet scary to me. It is a little bit of too much reality for me right now. SO many of our dear friends are getting divorced. Heart breaking. I had a panic attack a month or so ago about it. WORRYING that Jac was going to leave me. Lying awake staring at him wondering what it would be like if he wasn't there anymore, dropping the kids off for the weekend and what would I do without all of them around. I of course freaked out in my Kelly way, and cried and "expressed" my feelings too him, and he of course handled it in his oh so Jac, laid back, James Dean way, and laughed at me, then hugged me, and in his LOVING way, reassured me that he is not leaving me. I go through that once in a while. You would to if your husband was a super good looking photographer who works with GORGEOUS models, BUT not going into that. I am not insecure in the least bit, I think God blesses me so I don't lose it all the time, but once in a while I freak out and he brings me down like Xanax. We waited a while to have the kiddies, and REALLY Enjoyed our seven years traveling, hanging with friends, partying, traveling, sleeping, eating, working, sleeping and more sleeping!!! BUT, I wouldn't trade any of that for our two juniors. Well, maybe for some more sleep, BUT, Monkey is actually sleeping better.
Life is so NOT perfect at Casa Scott, but we work. We put up with each others crap and we have our "fun" battles, which I always win, guess working for Attorney's for so long you learn to argue:D Well, okay, I NEVER win, but I like to pretend I do. And the more wrong I am, the LOUDER I argue.
I love Jac with everything I have. He is my joy, my soul, my besty, my confidant, my heart, and most importantly my companion. Love you Budah! Can't wait for the future of us sitting on a HOT Beach somewhere, you surfing, taking pictures or watching birds, while I read Pride and Prejudice over and over on my Nook and judge everyone around me for what they are wearing and their way too tan bodies, and planning my next botox, hair and eyebrow waxing appointments, all while eating some Curry and rice. And at the end of the day, we will be us, and there is nothing better to me. I LOVE YOU, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!

PURSE AND NECKLACE PARTY AT MY PLACE!!

2009-10-27T13:04:00.000-07:00

I AM HAVING MY LAUNCH SHOW FOR PARADE OF PURSES AT MY HOUSE. THATS RIGHT ALL, I HAVE STARTED A NEW ADVENTURE. DECIDED I NEEDED SOMETHING TO DO TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE, MAKE SOME MONEY SO JAC DOESN'T KEEP TELLING ME TO STOP BUYING STUFF, AND WHAT A BETTER THING FOR KEL TO DO THEN SELL SOMETHING SHE IS OBSESSED WITH!!!! PURSES, PURSES, PURSES!!! I HAVE BEEN TO MANY A PURSE PARTIES AND I LOVE LAROBYN'S STUFF. SHE GETS THE CUTEST BAGS AND THEY ARE ALL UNDER $40. CAN'T BEAT THAT!!
SO COME AND SEE ALL THE MUST HAVES FOR THIS FALL/WINTER, OR JUST COME BOOK YOUR OWN SHOW SO YOU CAN EARN FREE STUFF!!! MY CUTE FRIEND MICHELLE WILL ALSO BE HERE SELLING HER OH SO CUTE NECKLACES.
SO, LOTS OF FOOD, PURSES, AND NECKLACES!!! YOU NEED TO BE HERE!!
NEXT TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 3RD FROM 6:30 TO 8:00, OPEN HOUSE STYLE
EMAIL ME IF YOU NEED MY ADDRESS
KELS2396@YAHOO.COM

TWO OF US DRIVING NO WHERE

2009-10-09T17:07:00.000-07:00

Sunday the 11th is my Budah's birthday. WOW! It seems like yesterday we were going on our first date exactly thirteen years ago. We had our first date the week of Jac's birthday. That is why I LOVE Fall so much. The chill in the air, the smell of the leaves and the temperature changing. AHHHHHH!!!
Jac and I have been on MANY road trips together. Gosh, I don't even think I can count them. We LOVE driving together and the anticipation of getting to our destination. Which is usually Southern Cali where we can bake in the sun, well, I can while Jac surfs, and smell the sea air, feel that cool, oh so needed sea spray, and sit and watch some of the most amazing sunsets imaginable.
Every time I hear The Beatles song two of us, I think of me and Jac and our road trips. We LOVE that song and it has kind of become "our" song. We have so many, but that one always makes me smile and think about him and I in the Jetta or the Jeep driving somewhere, or no where at all. We haven't been on too many road trips with the kiddies, but they are getting older and we are planning lots and lots of trips for the future.
Jac is my heart and I LOVE him so much. He works SOOOOOOOOOOO HARD all the time to support our family. He is an AMAZING photographer and has so many other great talents. Oh, and he is so damn good looking it is kind of sick:) I am one lucky girl to have him and I thank him for such a wonderful love and life we have.
This morning I was sitting at the dining room table checking my email and I looked into the kitchen through the little cut out and I started to cry. My sweet Jac and our two adorable kiddies were singing and dancing to Danzig of all things, but we were all together. How did I get so lucky? Why did I get him? How did we get the two of them? I thank God everyday for my sweet little family and all our blessings.
So, to my Budah, which I call him that not because he looks like Budah, but because his motorcycle makes that deep BUDAH BUDAH sound, anyway, to my Budah, I love you with everything I have. You are the most amazing husband, father and best friend a girl could ever ask for and I thank you for loving me. I know it is a challenge sometimes, but we work and I cherish you. Happy BIrthday Jac!!!

HIGH'S AND LOW'S, WHAT ARE YOURS?!?!?

2009-09-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

What are your highs and lows? Meaning, what gives you that Euphoria, that combustion in your chest, the ORGASM if you will, that you need to scream out loud or you are going to burst feeling. And what are you lows? What causes you physical pain, and makes your chest ache. Causes your eyes to burn with tears that just won't flow. We all have them, or l do anyway. I love to sit and look at others and wonder what theirs are. I am a people watcher. So, if you catch me staring, I am probably just trying to figure you out. Not judging, just wondering.
So, what are your highs? Mine, are pretty simple and surfaced I would say. But they are mine and that is all that matters.
The first time Jac kissed me and held me. I felt safe, love, lust, and just bliss. I thought I had felt that from a guy before, but nope! He was the first and the last, and I am so happy to say that I still feel this way with him after 13 years. He has my heart and always will.
When I walked out my parents back door that bright, crisp, amazing Christmas morning and there was my GORGEOUS white, spankin' new VW Jetta. Jac gave me my first car, it was mine. ALL MINE and l loved that car!
The day l found out I was preggers with Ele. Best day. I thought I was going to explode with happiness! Couldn't wait to tell the world.
The day she was born. No words can explain the relief of pain, anxiety and just true euphoria it was. Seeing her beautiful little alien face for the first time. Hearing that cry. holding her close to me for the first time. Watching Jac fall in love all over again. So amazing.
The day I walked off the airplane at JFK airport in New York City. l had dreamed about going there my whole life, and finally did.
Walking into to Tiffany's on 5th avenue, WOW! My dream for so many years. Jac taking me up to the 5th floor and letting me pick out a treasure to remember my first trip to NYC and Tiffany's by. Which I wear on my middle right finger every day.
Phin's arrival. SUCH a long, hard, sick pregnancy with him, and seeing him, holding him, loving him for the first time. Finding out his breathing was alright. Having Ele come to the hospital to meet her baby brother for the first time. Seeing Jac hold his "Jr." I was complete. My little family.
Those are just a few of my highs. So many more I could write about, So many from my childhood with my sisters, my parents, my Nana and Papa, all my cousins, and friends. Too many to write about, this post would go on forever.
I heard a song the other day that really made me think about my lows. I love music. I am constantly listening to music. Singing, crying, laughing about songs I love.
I don't believe in dwelling on the past and mistakes, but rather making your life better from those experiences. But, sometimes that is hard. I am not going to write about too many of my lows, because they are just, well, private. BUT, I will tell you that I have learned to NOT regret some of my lows. I use too. I use to think I was such a horrible person because of some of my choices in life. Not any more. I can't live my life in regret. I don't want to be a bitter person. Those people make me sad.
Lows make me stronger. It takes a little while, but I come out of my low better and stronger then before it began.
Losing loved ones, dogs, friends too young, being dumped for the younger girl in high school after giving everything to him, wondering if your life will ever be normal, struggling to be "perfect" in this society. These are a few of my lows that have inspired me to feel the euphoria of my highs. You will never know true love it you don't feel deceit and pure heart break. I wouldn't of known what loving Jac and being loved by Jac would really be like, without a low in my life. The one that when I heard this song, inspired this post.
"Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
you're gonna believe them
and when you're fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be, at fifteen" - Taylor Swift
Take your lows and make them your inspiration to have highs. I guess my lows helped me be more appreciative of my life. A good life at that.

THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!!!!

2009-08-30T16:26:00.001-07:00

The new erasers, the packages of all the pencils and pens, all the cute backpacks, the cubes of post its, and all those darn lunch boxes!The best time of year is when you walk down the isles of Target and see and smell all the school supplies. I LOVE shopping for new school clothes and supplies, and still go with my mom to the mall and get new shoes and clothes this time of year. It also means Fall is just around the corner. PUMPKINS, falling leaves, and HALLOWEEN!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
BUT this year it is really FUN and special for me. My Ele started preschool! WOW! I can't believe she is 4 and going to school. She LOVES her preschool and is in LOVE with Miss Cathy her teacher.
To get her all ready and prepared for her first day, we have been doing LOTS and LOTS of shopping! We spent the entire day last Sunday with our great friends Ashlee and Ellie in Park City, shopping, eating, and laughing. Just mommies and the girls. Ele and Ellie are such good friends and have so much fun together, and I just LOVE Ash! We laughed and talked and just really enjoyed watching our girls have so much fun together. We walked and walked and laughed and chased Ele and Ele and spent lots and lots of money. BUT we got some cute stuff and really had fun!!
The following day Ele was SOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED she couldn't sit still! She spent about an hour trying to figure out which outfit she wanted to wear and what shoes would be best. I am in trouble. She is a total shoe and clothes horse like her Mama. She finally settled on her new dress and cute polka dot leggings. Very shabby chic. She was set. We spent a few minutes taking pictures and mommy crying, more pictures, mommy choking back more tears, and then she did it. My SWEET little Blue looked at me and said, "Oh Mommy, you will be alwight, I will be back befoe you know it!" She is too sweet! I really cried then. Good thing I have such big sunglasses to hide the swollen no make up eyes. We hopped in the car and drove too Miss Cathy's Moonbeam Preschool. She just walked right up that walk way and headed right in. Hung her little Tink backpack in her cubby and was off to play with the toys, and wait for her besty Mia to get there. I sat there and watched my whole world unravel. Remembering back to feeling that little bean in my belly while I would sit at my desk at work longing to hold her. Remembering those LONG four days of labor awaiting her appearance, remembering the first day we got to spend home alone after I quit my job, our times at the park, our all nighters with her poor ears, our sleep overs in mommies bed when daddy is out of town, Oh so many memories and fun times with my Ella Blue! As I made my way to the door with Phin, I looked back at my beautiful little Blue and she gave me that GORGEOUS grin and said," Love you Mama!" in her little no "R's" brooklyn accent. The tears were POURING out of my eyes as I walked to my car. Four years. How they have flown. Did I do enough with her? Did I spend enough time just me and her laughing? Did I yell too much? Did I prepare her enough for school? On and on it goes. I never thought I would be driving her to preschool and dance lessons and singing all my wonderful naughty music with her. I just never imagined she would be mine and be grown up so fast. My Phin is one, is so independent now. He still loves Mama to rock him and sing too him and he and I are really enjoying our three afternoons a week alone. Usually spent either at home lying on the front room floor zooming cars around or at Costco or some shop just me and my boy! I am so in love with my kiddies. I can't look at them enough. They are my world. So, to you mommies out there. Enjoy your moments and time with your kiddies. It does go fast. It is hard for me to let Ele go, but there is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much joy in her voice when we ride home in the car and I listen to her and Mia talk about school and the boys and how gross they are. I actually had a glimpse of the future the other day. NOT looking forward to that! Jac and I talk about the future and how much trouble we are in for if she is anything like her very "SOCIAL" mother. HEEEHEEEE!
Now I cherish my weekends home with Jac and the kiddies so much more. making breakfast and singing and dancing in the kitchen. My cup runneth over.

ISSUES, WE ALL GOT 'EM!

2009-08-06T12:01:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to find a way to write about my experience with postpartum depression for a while, and how hard of a year my family has had because of it. I am still really struggling, but with the GREAT meds, and support from my family and friends, I make it some how. Jac has really taken the brunt of my depression, and I thank him so much for his love, HELP, and support. It sucks to be crazy! That is the only word I can say that expresses how I really feel. I use to hear about postpartum depression and thought, well, what is the deal? Just be happy! It's not that hard! WOW!!! I can't believe how upside down I felt for so long. I actually had it after Ele too, but I went back to work 6 weeks after she was born, and I think it helped. I have ALWAYS had issues with depression, but I covered them up with my oh so fun personality and just made my self be happy. Can't do it any more. It is so hard to admit you have issues, when you are suppose to be this so perfect wife, mother, daughter, sister, and sister of the mormon church. I AM NOT PERFECT! And I am not ashamed to say it. I am so grateful for God and his hand in my life, and for the church. I do LOVE being a member of this church, but I will not let my self feel horrible anymore for the life I live. I have Faith and i believe in the Lord and God. I pray! Yes, to all my friends, I do! I learned from my sweet Mom and Nana to pray. it does work and I know it. BUT, I can't handle the close minded ideas and issues. I won't go into all my opinions on gay marriage and Civil Rights and don't need too, but I don't understand how members of the church can preach free agency, and love one another, and Jesus says love everyone, treat them kindly too, and then write such horrible words and yell such horrible things at anyone. We are all equal and should be treated so. I will raise my children to love EVERYONE, and do not judge others for being different than us. Ele and Phin will grow up being taught the principals of the gospel, BUT, they will also know that mommy doesn't believe being gay is a choice. You can have your opinion and I can have mine. If you don't like mine, don't read my blog! We are all different and we shouldn't be frowned upon because of it, and told we are wrong because of something we don't chose to be. I think we all need to focus on a lot worse things that are justified and ignored in the world. Like children being abused in all ways. Take those issues to the supreme court and quit worrying about Jon and Jon wanting to get married!!
So, to all my mommy readers out there. DON'T LET YOURSELVES LOSE YOURSELVES!!! That is my motto today. Having my babies is the best thing I ever did, but I don't think we should lose our mental health for good for it. I am trying to lose this damn baby weight and get back in shape, but it is hard. I am tired of feeling like crap, and really, really want to buy that pair of Frye boots this winter!! SO, for some reason I needed to put this out there. Maybe it is because I read one of my favorite blogs, http://www.thegirlwho.net and Monica always inspires me to speak my mind and NOT care what every one thinks about me. She is a very talented writer and strong woman. I went to school with Monica and have been stalking her blog for a while now. She has a GREAT IDEA on her blog that I think everyone that has a blog should participate in. Check it out!!
So, in closing, I want hope all of my friends and family know that I am happy. It has been a ruff go for my family, but I am doing great!! I have my down days, and you can tell, but I have great friends and family to pick me up and keep me going. Thank God for meds!!! That is all I can say! I hope someday to be off them, but I don't think so. I NEVER want to feel the way I felt a year ago. I guess that is why I felt the need to write this today. I was just thinking back to a year ago and where I was and how hard it was for Ele and Jac. I LOVE my family more than anything in the world, and will protect them to the death, but sometimes you have to protect them from your self, and that can be the hardest thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONKEY!!!

2009-07-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR SWEET MONKEY!!! Phin turned 1 years old today! I can't believe how quickly time flies! It seems like just yesterday he was this little tiny infant. Now he is walking, laughing and talking his little language. He can say yes, light, and hat. We love him SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! He is such an amazing little boy. Loves to play with his big sister Ele and just watch her. He is fascinated by her. She is definitely his favorite.
I love watching him with Jac. He is so happy when his daddy is holding him. He is on top of the world.
I am so happy to tell my sweet little Monkey HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY!!! We love you so much!

FARE THEE WELL MY BRIGHT STAR

2009-07-07T10:45:00.000-07:00

I had to say good bye to my sweet Dakota this past week. He was 13 and was showing his age really bad. He had lost so much weight this past year, and had just really gotten old. All I can say, is good bye my sweet boy. I have never loved an animal as much as I have loved him. I have my sweet Sadie, and LOVE her the same, but Kota will always have a very special place in my heart. He got me through one of the hardest times in my life. He was my confidant, my shoulder to cry on, and really my only friend in the world at that time. He was the reason I got up in the morning, and would come and butt my arm with his head when I was so down and just sitting in the yard wondering where my life was headed. He made me smile when I felt I couldn't.
There is a part in the movie Marley and Me, when Jennifer Aniston has a miss carriage and she doesn't cry until she gets home and holds Marley, their dog and then she lets go. I have been there. Kota was that for me. the only one who I showed my true feelings too. The only one. I didn't have a miss carriage, but I lost one of my best friends in the world, and Kota was the only one who I felt I could share my feelings of loss with, because nobody knew how much I loved this guy, and I couldn't believe I wasn't going to have any more late night phone calls with him, or sneak up to Salt Lake to spend time with him and see his sweet smiling face. I didn't think I was going to be able to go on, and Dakota knew that. Some how, that sweet dog knew and saved me. I will always think of him in the summer evenings when the wind blows and I can smell the sweet smell of the linden trees in my parents yard.
My heart hurts today as I am typing this, but I know he is MUCH better off. I love you Kota Bear, and I will NEVER forget what you did for me.
I took this picture a few days ago when we were out in my parents back yard playing. It was the last time He and Sadie were together. Such an odd couple. Big huge lab, and tiny, dainty Italian greyhound. They were truly soul mates. Sadie will miss him too. I don't know how I will look out my parents back door and not see that sweet blonde face any more. And hear that tail wagging against the sliding glass door. He was the most loved dog. My mom and dad took such good care of him. He was so spoiled and loved. He was so NOT a house dog, but every time I went up there, he was in the house by the back door on the rug. He loved my mom so much. She is an AMAZING person and really loved him, and I thank her and my sweet dad so much for taking such good care of my first baby.
So, as we have to say good bye to another loved one in our family, I am just grateful for the memories and time spent with all of them.
So, fare thee well my bright star. I will never forget you my sweet Dakota.

Jac's "OTHER" lady!

2009-06-09T14:47:00.000-07:00

Well, those of you who know Jac and I, know that we have a very eccentric, odd some would say relationship. We both give and take. We communicate very well. We both like to have fun and tease each other. Keeps out relationship fresh and fun!. He is AMAZING! Like I have mentioned in several posts, Jac works EXTREMELY hard and works A LOT. He is so dedicated to his work and supporting our family. He doesn't have a lot of time to do "Jac" stuff, but we have made it a priority for Jac to get to do his stuff. He LOVE his motorcycle. Seriously, I think she is right up there with me and the kiddies. I LOVE IT! Nothing sexier than a guy on a bike. My guy on a bike. SUPER SEXY!! I always have had a thing for the bad boys. I dated the bad boy in high school and paid for it. Got treated like crap, cheated on constantly, but for some reason, I couldn't get enough. Tried dating the jock, not my bag. Always liked the naughty ones I guess. Well, Jac is the perfect combo of bad\good. I knew he was the one for me on our first date when he took me on a dirt bike on some really ruff trail and almost bounced me off the back! SUPER FUN! He has always treated me like I am the only girl in the world, and still does. I loved that he was the skater, surfer, dirty bad boy with a VERY sweet, romantic, good side. PERFECT man for me. We dated for 2 years and finally got married. We have been together for 13 years this fall. Best 13 years of my life. He saved me. Made me a better person. Gave me two beautiful amazing children that we adore. He is the best and I LOVE him more than anything in the world. I am SOOOOOOOO glad he has his bike and that he LOVES every second of her. I don't mind her being the "other" lady. Glad she's a bike! HEEEHEEEE! Oh, and did I mention that he is totally sexy on it?!?!
I am a very lucky lady and I know it! LOVE YOU BUDAH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET SISTAH CANDACE!!!

2009-06-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

So, I know I have said it before, and I will say it again! I am sooooooooo blessed to have the two BEST sisters in the world! They are fab! They are my besties and my confidants! I LOVE them with all my heart!
Today is Candace's birthday, and I want to wish her the BEST day! She and I have gotten so close over the past few years. I don't know what I would do without her. She is SUCH a big help to me in so many ways. Always there for me when I need to vent and bitch, but also there for me when I break down and think I can't go on. She has NO idea how much she has helped me this past year. She did so much for me when I had Phin, I wouldn't of made it without her. LITERALLY! I will try and repay her this Summer when she has her baby girl!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH CAN!! Thanks for being my best friend and sister. Hope you have the best day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELE BIG 4 YEAR OLD!!!

2009-06-06T20:29:00.001-07:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE MY BABY GIRL IS FOUR YEARS OLD!!! Wow how time flies. It seems just like yesterday I was DYING of labor pains for FOUR days and thinking that having a baby was a really bad idea!! WELL, that all changed on June 7, 2005 at 6:32 am. The most AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL, FANTASTIC little girl entered this world, and changed mine and Jac's world. She is so special. We just adore you Ele! She has been the light of our lives and will continue to be so. She has changed soooooooooooo much in the last year. Not only her appearance, but her entire personality. She is a little lady. She can light up a room with her smile, she can make you cry with her sad eyes, and she can break your heart with a whisper of "I love you." Ele is an exceptional little girl. She LOVES, well WORSHIPS her daddy. They are so cute together. She melts him.
She is my heart. I always wanted a little girl, but never knew how amazing she would be. She is the best big sister to her brother Phin. He adores her. I was bawling today watching them play in the sandbox at my parents house together. She is so patient with him and helps him learn and develope so much. She is my little helper around here. My walls and doors all clean from her level down.
I can't imagine my life with out my "Blue," she is enchanting. Her eyes take you to another relm. I have enjoyed our mommy daughter sleep overs this week while Jac has been in New York. I am going to miss her little snores while I am awake reading, and her little laughs while we lay in the dark with the flashlight making animals with our fingers and the shadows.
I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL! You truly are an amazing little girl. WE WISH YOU THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER! LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

JIVE BABY!

2009-06-03T09:09:00.001-07:00

Here are some of the shots from Ele's dance concert with Jive a few weeks ago. She did SOOOOOOOO GOOD! She loves dance and is going to keep taking through the summer!
More pics to come later!

SOOOOO FUN!!

2009-05-29T12:08:00.000-07:00

K, so I just wanted to share this GREAT find with all my mommy, pool going friends!
I am ALWAYS searching for my keys. Seriously! I have lost my VW flip key plenty. It drives my ever so patient, sweet, GORGEOUS husband nuts!! I just had to order a new back so I could hook my car key back on my key ring and I am sooooooo happy I did. BUT, I have been looking for something cute/funky, i.e. sooooooo Kel for my keys, and look at what I found!! I saw this on Giveaway Today's Blog. It is from Sweetirie.blogspot.com. (link to her blog from her button right here on my blog.) I just ordered this set and CAN'T wait to get it! I was just going to order the key chain because I thought, how great! I can hook it in my diaper bag or purse, and wear it on my wrist while carrying Phin and holding Ele's hand to and from everywhere. But, then I saw the ever so cute change bag that hooks onto the key chain, and got really, really excited! I am soooooooooooo paranoid when we go to the pool in the summer that someone is going to steal my wallet. You have to take $$$ to get in and buy goodies for the kiddies, and I hate having cash just hanging around in my swim bag because like I mentioned before, I am GREAT at losing stuff! I think this will be perfect for my cash and cell to go in so I can leave my wallet locked in my car. I also just ordered one for my sweet sister Candace's birthday. Oh, and Tric, I have one coming to you too! HEEEHEEE!
I LOVE Etsy and finding cute yet functional stuff on there. I am actually starting my own Etsy site and will let you all know when it is up and going. I am very excited to try and sell some of my stuff!

WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!!!

2009-05-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

WOW!! We have had a very busy, crazy, yet AMAZING past weekend.
Ele had her very first Dance recital with Jive last Friday and Saturday. (posting pics later.) We had lots and lots of practices, dress rehearsal, and go go go!!!! Pretty hectic but WONDERFUL! She did awesome! Jac and I are very proud parents. She was patient, listened well, and just really enjoyed the whole experience. She LOVED being on stage and performing. And, I have to say, for an almost 4 year old, she did the dance pretty good!
Jac, my parents, my sweet grandma, and Jac's dad all came and watched her Friday night. We had some very proud grandparents. Ele got her first bouquet of flowers from her dad. Very sweet! They are on her armour in her bedroom. She is very proud of them.
Last Saturday was CRAZY! Jac had to shoot the Auto Expo. at Thanksgiving Pointe. So I was on my own with to and from with two kiddies! My super sweet parents took Phin for the afternoon so I could be the stage mom for the 2:00 performance and not have to deal with Terminator himself, and 13 screaming little girls at the same time! Thanks again mom and dad!! Phin was an angel for them. He LOVES his Gram and Bapa very much!
I had a TON of fun being with Ele and getting to be the "mommy" for her class before their performance. After the 2 pm show, Ele and I headed over to our sweet friend Tami's baby shower. Ele loved it! They had a really fun yard for her to play in, and I got to relax and enjoy some good friends before heading back for two more performances. We headed to my parents and picked up Monkey and headed back down to the recital. Ele was really excited to get to perform again and again! Monkey Do was tired, but being super patient and good.
After the Auto Expo, Jac headed up to Salt Lake for the AIGA 1\100 awards. His department at UVU were getting some awards. Well, to his surprise, my very AMAZING, TALENTED, OH SOOOOOOO GOOD LOOKING Budah, got 1 out of 10 awards!! It is called the Copper Ingot award. He got it for one of his shots for the UVU magazine he did a couple issues ago.
l am SOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of him!! He has worked so much, and so hard this past year. He TOTALLY deserved the award, and I think he is smiling a bit bigger today! Good Job Babe! We are soooooo proud of you! I am a bit sad I didn't get to be there to see him receive the award, BUT, I was sure excited to see my sweet little Ele dance her little heart out! She truly is our gorgeous glowing Blue! We love you Ele! She has a birthday coming up, and I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 4. WOW! Where does it go? I love you Blue. Good job dancin'! And, Phin, good boy sitting there through all the chaos! All in all, I am a very proud, happy, and glowing mom and wife. AND, Jac is also glowing because he will be getting his Motorcycle back from the shop after 7 LONG months of it getting chopped. I will be posting pics of it later too!

SPRING SWAP! - LINK

2009-05-06T14:10:00.000-07:00

My cute friend Hannah at Sherbet Blossom is doing a Spring Swap. It sounds fabulous! I have signed up and hope all my family and friends do to. It will be so fun to share all our talents and see what you get! I will be posting what I send and what I receive this month, so make sure you check back later on to see!
Go to the link and sign up.

CUTE, CUTE CUTE!!!! - Oh my heck on Etsy - LINK

2009-04-30T11:19:00.001-07:00

K, So my super cute, talented, amazing friend Michelle has started an etsy site. She makes the most ADORABLE necklaces. And guess what? They are SUPER affordable. Check out her site and order some. I ordered two today, and will for sure be ordering more. I LOVE supporting my friends and family in their ventures, so if you have something you are selling, let me know. I love to buy stuff and advertise! HEEHEEE!
Check out Michelle's Etsy site by hitting link above

"TURN AROUND, DON'T DROWN!!!!"

2009-04-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

K, so I have the two best sisters in the world! Candace and I got to go to Houston last weekend and spend four AMAZING days with Tricia and Tim. We left the kiddies and the snow for some very much needed sistah time. My absolutely amazing, super supportive husband took work off to stay home with Ele and Phin so I could go. Thanks Budah, you are the BEST! Candace left Ally and Andrew with her sister and brother in law because Jimbo was in Florida for work. Can and I left Thursday morning. We of course had a great flight talking and laughing and gearing up for some fun sister time with Tric. We got there and the weather was good. Over cast, moist and ahhhhh! I LOVE humidity and sea level. Best for the skin and hair! We went out that night and got some dinner and hung out at the house with Tim and "Devil Dog" Picabo. She is HILARIOUS! She is definitely in charge of that household! I love that little stinker and actually miss her!
We of course stayed up super late, well, anything past 10 is super later too me, so me going to bed at 2 am, was EXTREMELY late! Good thing I could sleep in on Friday! It was really nice to not have to get up and feed Phin, but I did wake up a couple of times thinking the morning doves outside cooing were baby boy. So, Friday we woke up and it was still pretty overcast. But, we decided to get ready and head out for lunch and SHOPPING! What we Davis girls do best. Eat, chat, and shop, shop SHOP!!!!! We sat and ate lunch and chatted. We decided to head to the Outlet Mall. Nothing better than cheaper stuff! I love Coach purses and baby, they have a Coach outlet. WAHOO! Well, we started heading that way when it started pouring rain, I mean insane amount of water coming from the sky. So, while Tricia couldn't see at all driving, we decided to just stick around the area by her house. We did a bit of shopping around there and then took a shower in our clothes in the rain storm and headed home. It was so crazy! I have never seen anything like that in my life. I can't imagine what it would of been like to be there for Hurricane Ike, because this was seriously scary enough without the wind!
We decided on Saturday to hang out at the house and wait to see if the storm was going to let up at all. Well, it didn't so, the insane shoppers we are, we decided we didn't give a rats, and headed out! We drove on the access road which is next to the freeway thinking it would be better then the freeway. HOLY CRAP! We were seriously driving in a river! But, come Hell or High water, HEEHEEE, we were getting to the damn outlet mall! We made it, but not without drama. Cars were getting submerged in water and stalling. It was nuts! Once we got to the mall the storm started to let up and we actually saw some sunshine. We didn't care. We had each other and lots and lots of stores to walk through and money to spend! Let's just say, I was NOT disappointed! I got some great stuff and had some serious laughs with my two sistahs! The Texas slogan "Turn around, don't drown" is NOT at all fabricated! CRAZY but beautiful place. I LOVED IT!
The trip of course went way too fast, and I miss Tricia terribly! Sucks we live so far away from each other, but it is nice to get to go and visit such an amazing place. I love my sisters so much and I am so lucky to have them in my life. We laughed so dang hard and talked so much, that I think I have permanent laugh lines! I LOVE you Candace and Tricia! Thanks for the fun and the memories! Can't wait until next time!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2009-03-26T17:18:00.000-07:00

I am a very compulsive shopper. It drives my sweet Jac nuts! I LOVE to shop and find new things. I have a major obsession with shoes and purses, and spend a lot of my time looking for new styles and colors of them both. I don't do my research and I have a hard time waiting for things to go on sale. Ok, I NEVER wait for things to go on sale. I think if I do, they will all be gone. Well, I decided when I was pregnant with Phin that we needed to get a double stroller because I spend a lot of time in the mall and out walking. I found a sit and stand one that I thought was going to be fab, but I was WRONG! I hated that dang thing! Phin hated riding in the back because the seat reclined to far back and he couldn't stand that, and he of course hated his carrier so putting him on the front part wasn't working for him either. Ele is pretty easy going and would sit in either spot, but she did complain that her feet got stuck in the back seat a lot. So basically I paid about $160 for this stroller and barely used it at all. It sat in the back of my wagon and made an appearance once in a while. I decided that it wasn't ever going to get used so I talked to my friend\neighbor to see if they would be interested in buying it since they were having another child. They did and BAM! It was sold!! YAY! Thanks again Lex!
Well, then came the dilemma of not having a stroller for my days at the mall or just walking out side with the kiddies. Phin is getting a bit too heavy for the Bjorn, so my search began! I really wanted to get a double jogger so I can exercise with it and take it on our family outings. I thought about getting a bike trailer and then we could take the kids on bike rides and I could also use it as a stroller, but I think those are too big, and I am not a huge bike rider. Jac and I went all over the last couple of weeks from store to store looking for double joggers. Jac is a HUGE researcher! He gets really annoyed with me because I just buy the first thing I see because I have NO patience for it. So he started his research. We found a Columbia one at Sports Authority but Jac didn't like that the front wheel didn't swivel. So we came home, Kelly very frustrated and annoyed. So I started searching the web. I found this one! It it great! It has the highest ratings and every review l read was great, so Jac ordered it for me for my birthday. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!! I haven't had a chance to use it yet because of the CRAPPY weather, and I haven't put air in the tires yet, but I will hopefully be using it soon! YAY!! Thanks BUDAH!!

MY BLUE AND MONKEY DOO!

2009-03-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to write a bit about my AMAZING kids. I am so in love with them both it is sick! When Jac and I had Ele, we didn't think we would ever have room to love any other kids. Seriously. We thought we would only be able to have her because we both worshipped her so much, we didn't know how we could share love with another child. Well, were we wrong! We have our little Monkey Doo as I call him, our Phin, and we both adore him.
Blue, that is my Ele, She is the most amazing little girl. She loves her little brother and takes such good care of him. She is growing up to be quite a unique and amazing little lady. She loves to sing, dance, play, and create. She is definitely going to be an artist like her father. Who knows what direction she will go, but she is definitely talented in so many ways. I love watching her learn and grow. She is my heart. I can't help but smile when I look into the amazing blue eyes. I love you Blue!
Monkey Doo, I don't know why I call him that, but it just fits. Phin is just a love. He loves Mama to cuddle him and just be near him. He needs me and I LOVE that. He is growing and learning every day. He loves Ele with all his heart and can't stand it if she is not home. He is constantly looking for her when she is not here. He takes me to another place when I hold him and rock him to sleep. My favorite time with him is sitting in his room in the rocking chair soothing him, and making him feel safe. I love you Monkey Doo!
My family is my whole world. I love them sooooooooo much that it physically hurts me to think of not having them around. I am so lucky and blessed to get to be these childrens mother, and am so grateful to my Jac for working so hard so I can stay home and watch these two beautiful angels grow, and help them learn. I love my Heavenly Father for blessing Jac and I with them. They are so strong in so many ways. How can you not believe in and AMAZING God when you look at these two? Really, I am blessed!!

HAPPT ST. PATTY'S DAY!!!

2009-03-17T07:24:00.001-07:00

Pretty toes, flip flops, OH MY!

2009-03-02T11:08:00.000-08:00

Well, It is time. Time to get your feet pretty!
If you know me, then you know that all I wear all Spring, Summer, and even Fall are flip flops! I am obsessed with them. I buy too many, in Jac's opinion, but to me, you can never have too many! I am VERY excited that it is starting to warm up a bit and I can't WAIT to wear flip flops. I also have a very HUGE infatuation with my toes being painted. I can't stand when they get chipped or look shabby. I am going to get a pedicure this weekend for sure! I CAN'T WAIT! I am thinking I may take Ele for her very first one too. Maybe a mommy daughter day?!?!?
Thought I would share some of my coveted flip flops that I want. I have also turned Ele into a flip flop girl. We are already searching for her some cute ones, and I will get Phin too join the flip flop club this summer too.

I HOPE I WIN!!!

2009-02-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

My cute friend Hanna is doing another give away on her blog sherbertblossom. She is giving away a $20 gift certificate for baby legs. I LOVE these. Ele has a couple pair that she wears to dance and wears with skirts. I think they are absolutely adorable. I was at a baby shower last night and we were talking about how cute they are. They also show them for boys. I don't know what I think about that, but maybe under a T shirt or something.
Wish me luck! I really hope I win!!!

Happy LATE Birthday to my Sweet Daddy!

2009-02-25T14:15:00.000-08:00

Well, I am kind of behind on stuff, but I just wanted to post this any way. Better late than never right?!?!?
It was my sweet dad's birthday a few weeks ago, and I just wanted to tell him HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the best dad and Bapa in the world! I love you so much dad, and I thank you for being such an amazing father and the most fun, silly, adoring grandpa to my kids. Ele and Phin ADORE you. I love spending time with you and them. I had such a great childhood with you and all the fun stuff we did and all the great things you taught me. You are such an inspiration to me and I know my kids will always look up too you as I do. I love to watch you play with Phin and see the smile on his face when he looks at you. Ele loves all the fun things you do with her. She can't stop talking about how you read to her the other day. She loved that. She also can't stop talking about how you were out SKATEBOARDING with the neighbor boys! You really are not an old man! You are such a leader to all the Youth in your ward and have helped so many boys become men, and helped so many youth gain a strong testimony of the church. You have had a HUGE hand in mine that is for sure. I want you to know that I truly love and respect you more than words can ever say. Thanks for being so good to mom and us girls. We are so lucky to have you. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAD!!!

How cute are these?!?!?!

2009-02-17T13:55:00.001-08:00

Oh my gosh! Look how cute these are! I am going crazy. My friends is giving away a free pair of booties on her blog Sherbertblossom. I love the hats for Ele, and I think the booties are darling for Phin. I am totally going to order some of these for my sister Candace when she finds out what she is having.
I want the Cowboy boots!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

2009-02-12T14:27:00.000-08:00

Valentines Day is one of my favorite holidays. It didn't use to be, but when I started dating Jac, he changed that. He has always made Valentines Day amazing. I always had sucky boyfriends that either broke up with on Valentines, or got pissed because I didn't make a huge deal about it for him. But, my Jac always makes this day so special for me.
I love you so much Jac and I just wanted to wish you and our sweet kiddies a Happy Day. I LOVE YOU!
I also want to wish all my family and friends a happy Valentine too. I had so much fun with my fam this last week. Even though it was a hard week losing my sweet Nana, it was sure nice to be with all of you. I will miss my Sistah Tric soooooooooooo much! Time just goes by too fast when she is here.
I LOVE ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS! Have a fun day!
Love, Kel

Saying Goodbye

2009-02-04T10:39:00.000-08:00

Why is so hard to say goodbye? I don't understand. I know that moving on from this life is a good thing, but I guess I am selfish. I am not ready for my Nana to go. I want her pain to stop, and I want her to move on, but I want her here too. She is my heart. My sisters and I have been been so blessed to have the two best grandparents in the world. If you ever met my Nana and Papa, you would understand. They were the most sweet, humble, fun, and silly people I have ever met. I have so many wonderful memories of them. They were such a huge part of our lives. We went every where with them. I can't remember a boating trip with out them. Lake Powell was a HUGE part of our summers and Nana and Papa were right there making it better. I am so blessed to have my Eleanor Marie. Our little Ele was named after my sweet Nana, and what an honor it is too her. We will always have an Ele!
I don't know how life will start again, but I know it will. It was so hard after my Papa passed away, but we seem to be making it with out him. We think about him every day, and always talk about him, but it some how has gotten easier and I know it will with Nana too. I am just not ready to not have her sweet smile in my life. My heart is aching. It is her time. I know that. She will be in a better place and always with us. It is so hard to watch her struggle for each breath. I just hope she goes soon and peacefully. My sweet mom and her brother are so strong. My mom is a machine. She just keeps going. We will be there for her and George when they fall apart.
Life is short. I have had my Nana for my whole life, but I still feel cheated of time with her. My Phin won't remember her. She adores him. She never liked his name, but she loved him and all her sweet great grandchildren.
Yesterday Candace and I were up there with the girls and Phin. I watched my sweet Ele and Ally put their little hands over Nana's sweet, warm hand and tell her they loved her. I know she heard them. She kept trying to open her eyes, but just couldn't. It isn't an easy thing to watch your loved ones pass, but I think it makes us stronger. I can honestly say that in some way I thought they would always be here. I never imagined Nana and Papa being gone. My Nana is a Rock. She has had so many trials in her life that I can't begin to think about going through. She is truly my idol. I love you more than any words can say Nana. Be at Peace. You will truly be missed.

RSV, OH MY!

2009-01-19T09:29:00.000-08:00

Well, I am very sad to report that my sweet little baby Phin has RSV. This is the most horrible sickness we have ever been through with either of our children. He has been SUPER sick since last Wednesday. I took him and Ele to the doctor last Tuesday because I was worried that they both had real nasty colds and ear infections. The doctor told me that Phin just had a head cold, and Ele had a virus and we just needed treat their symptoms the best we could, and wait it out. Well, we went to Jac's grandpa's funeral the next day, and were out all day long. Phin didn't get a nap or any rest. We got home that afternoon and he had a fever. He didn't sleep at all that night, I mean at all, and was really sick and coughing horribly on Thursday. I called my pediatrician and they told me to just keep giving him Tylenol and if he was still bad in the morning to bring him in. Well, he was coughing so bad that night that he was throwing up. I called the doctor as soon as they opened and we went right in. Our dear sweet friend Debbie Hill who is the Nurse Practioner, didn't like the way he looked or sounded. We did an oxygen level test on him, and he was down to about 78 to 80. That is not good! The lowest you should be is 80, and they can even be alarming. We did a Nebulizing treatment and they told me if his levels didn't get above 96 then he would be hospitalized. So, as I sat there in the little exam room with my sweet baby boy trying to breath and get away from the nebulizer, I prayed with all my heart that he would me alright. When they came in and tested his oxygen again, it was at 97 and 98. WHEW! We were very happy. They prescribed an antibiotic and sent us home with a nebulizer with strict instructions to keep him in the house and not take Ele around any kids. Needless to say, it has been a rough weekend. We have been doing treatments around the clock every 6 hours and they seem to be working. We are all getting cabin fever and a little sick of each other, but are so happy to report that Phin is doing a lot better. If you have ever had a child get RSV, then you may know what I am talking about when I say it is HORRIBLE! I am so happy to see my baby boy smile and sit and play. I have seriously been holding him around the clock for about 5 days now. I finally slept in my own bed and he in his the other night. He is still struggling to breath but is much better. We go back to the doctor tomorrow for a check up.
So, my reasoning for this post is not to get attention or sympathy from any of you, but to make you all aware of RSV. I was sure that Phin just had a cold and that he was fine. Well, the doctor also said that too the first time we took him in. But, if your infants have a really nasty cough and a temperature, make sure you ask your doctor to do an RSV test. I am just glad we caught Phin's when we did. If we would of gone just one more day, his oxygen level would of been so low that he would of been in the hospital. Hopefully none of you will ever have to watch your sweet little babies go through this, but if you do, be really dedicated to the nebulizing treatments, they work! God bless!

SIMPLIFY in 2009

2009-01-02T09:02:00.000-08:00

SIMPLIFY
That is my motto for 2009. As I reflect back on 2008, I am just amazed at what our little family accomplished. We really reached some new mile stones and welcomed new miracles into our family. Our sweet baby boy Phin joined our family on July 10th. What a joy he is. His smile lights up the world. He is truly the best blessing we received this last year. He is going to be 6 months old and I can't believe how quickly time has gone by. Cherish your little ones. They grow so quickly.
Our sweet Eleanor is three and half, and it seems like yesterday we were just getting ready for her birth. She is the sweetest, funniest, craziest, and most giving little girl I have ever been around. She is going to be starting dance lessons soon and she can't wait. Pre School starts in August and she talks about it every day. She can't wait to go to the pool and be with her best friend\cousin Ally every chance she gets! I don't know how a person can look into little children's eyes and say that they don't believe in God. They are just true miracles. I know mine are. There is no way my sweet children could be here on this earth without God. So I am so grateful to him and our Lord for my family.
Jac has been working a ton this last year. It is a bitter sweet blessing. I miss him every time he leaves, but he is out making money for our family so I can stay home. He works so hard and has become such a great Photographer. I am so proud of him. Our children adore him and can't wait to see him every time he comes home. I love my Budah with all my heart and he is my balance. He makes me a better me. I love you Jac.
So, I am going to make some BIG changes in my life this year. I want to Simplify everything I can. I guess I am just trying to teach Ele and Phin what really matters in this life. My family is the most important thing to me, so I want to simplify my life to make sure I make them my first and most important priority.
So, as I sit and set my goals for the new year, I hope to achieve each and every one of them. I hope that I can really make food storage and being prepared a real goal this year and not just talk about it. I am going to TRY and not be so materialistic and save some money. But, if you see me with the new Marc Jacobs bag, don't judge! HEEEHEEE! I am going to be at the Gym a lot more and lose this baby weight. I am, I am!
I hope to see all my good friends a lot more and bring happiness and peace to this world in some way.
Happy New Year to all of you from my sweet family to yours.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTY SISTER TRICIA!

2008-12-29T17:57:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST SISTER TRICIA!
It was her Birthday on December 28th and I am late in making this post for her, but I want her to know how much I love and adore her. She is the best! I am sooooooooooo lucky to have the two best sisters and best friends in the world! Tric lives far away in Houston Texas and I miss her SOOOOOOOOOOO much! We talk on the phone daily. We solve the worlds problems, laugh hysterically, and cry all at the same time. I love you so dang much Tric! I can't wait to see you soon! I hope you had a great birthday and I can't wait to celebrate with you either at Taco Amigo or Scone Cutter, and KICKING your butt at Candace and Jim's playing tennis on the Wii! Candace totally kicked mine the other day, but Jac and I are going to get one and I am going to practice and then kick hers someday! HEEEHEEE!!!
LOVE YOU SISTAH!

HO HO HO, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-15T08:48:00.001-08:00

I want to wish all our family and friends a very Merry Christmas. We have had a very eventful year. We welcomed a new addition to our family. Phin joined our family on July 10, 2008. He is the most adorable and sweet little boy. We all adore him very much. Ele has grown up to be such a big girl. She is three and a half. She has made some very big mile stones this last year. She gave up her Shnoolie, (binkie), is completely potty trained, and loves to go to her nursery class at church alone! We are so proud of her and love her very much. She is the best big sister to Phin and helps us with him all the time.
Jac and I both feel so blessed. We have been through some tuff times this year, but have come through this year much better and stronger. Life isn't always easy, but the hard times make us stronger.
I love my husband with all my heart. He is a great husband, father, and best friend. I can't imagine where I would be in my life without him. He is amazing, l am so lucky to have him. He puts up with a lot with me, and I love him more then words can say.
So, I hope you all can look back on this last year and feel as grateful for what you have as I do.
I love Christmas and what it means. I hope I can teach my children that it is not about the presents and treats. It is about Christ and what he gave to us. That is the best gift of all. I feel The Lord's love every day when I look at Jac and our kids.
So as you reflect on your blessings this last year, I hope you all can be grateful for your family as much as l am for mine.
I hope you all know that you are all in my thoughts and l love you all very much. Merry Christmas from our family to yours.

Give Thanks

2008-11-26T10:00:00.000-08:00

Well, as I sit here in my warm house this morning playing with Ele, and listening to my sweet baby boy snore over the monitor, I decided I need to express how thankful I am for what I have. I am so blessed to have such an AMAZING husband who is my besty and has my heart. He is the best father and I adore him. I wouldn't have the two best kids in the world without him.
I am so thankful for Ele and Phin. They are my whole world. I love them and cannot imagine my life without them. Ele is the smartest, sweetest, funniest little girl. She is such a good big sister to Phin and is my little Blue! She helps me so much around the house and is so much fun to play with. I always wanted a little girl to play dolls with and now I have one. I am also so thankful for me little man! He is such a cuddly sweetie who worships his Mommy! Literally, I am the only one that can feed him a bottle. He is so sweet he makes me cry when I hold him and watch him discover this new world. He loves his sister and is learning new things every day.
I am so lucky to be able to stay home with my kids. Jac works so hard for our family so I can be home and raise them. So, too him I thank him. He works non stop and is not home very much, but we make it work.
I am so lucky to have the best parents and sisters in the world that support me and keep me going. They really step up and help me when Jac is not around. I don't know what I would do without my sweet sister Candace. We spend a lot of time together and I enjoy every second of her and her sweet kids. Ally is Ele's whole world! We can't have a conversation without Ally and Andrew being brought up. I love you Candace. Thanks for always being there and helping with my kids.
I love and miss my sister Tricia soooooooooooo much! She and Tim are living in Houston now. I am so grateful for our long talks on the phone where we solve the worlds problems. She always makes me laugh, and is always there when I need to scream or cry! She is the best and I can't wait to see her soon!
And, to my parents. What can I say. I don't know where I would be without them. They have saved me many times. I love you both sooooooooooo much and appreciate you all putting up with me when I just can't do it anymore. Thanks for stepping up and taking Ele when I have my melt downs. She worships you both and so does Phin.
I am so grateful for the Lord in my life. I am so grateful for The Gospel and my Faith I have in Our Heavenly Father. I hope that I can teach Ele and Phin what is important in life. I am so thankful for Ele asking to go to church every Sunday. Well, every day. She loves her class and she loves singing and learning about The Lord. She makes Jac and I want to be there too.
So, to all of you, my family and friends, I love you all very much. Thanks too you all for your friendships and love, because without you all, I wouldn't make it! Happy Thanksgiving! Gobble, Gobble!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2008-11-06T11:47:00.000-08:00

We had a fun Day on Halloween. We went and saw my sweet Nana with Candace and her kids. Then we came home and got Ele ready to go trick or treating. Ele was Cinderella and Phin was a Lion. Phin hated his costume and was screaming the whole time he was in it, so he ended up just wearing his little outfit and owl hat. We didn't even get a picture of him in the costume. I am going to have to put it on him and take some pictures. It is really cute on him even if he is screaming!
We went trick or treating all over the neighborhood and Ele got lots, and lots of good candy. Jac and I have been sneaking some and she is too smart, she notices when something is missing! Silly girl!
Jac has been working so much that it was so nice to have him home that night to go out trick or treating with us.
Ele's favorite thing to do on Sundays is go on a bike ride at the river trail by our house. She and Jac have gone most Sundays. It is going to be too cold soon, so Jac made sure they got to go one last time!
We had a fun Halloween and hope you all did too. We are looking forward to the next up coming Holidays!

Nielsen's Grove and Cornbelly's!

2008-11-06T11:16:00.000-08:00

Candace and I have been taking advantage of the warm weather. We took the girls to Nielsen's Grove the other day while Andrew was in school. It was a lot of fun to watch the girls feed the ducks and play. Ele decided that she was going to chase the ducks. Well, I of course was encouraging her and Ally to do it while Candace was telling them not too. Ele got a little excited and kicked a duck! I was laughing so hard because I don't think she meant to do it. I think she was just excited and kicking her feet but she made contact. Don't worry, she didn't hurt, and I don't think she will ever do that again. It scared her pretty bad. It did give Candace and I a good laugh though!
We also went to Cornbelly's at Thanksgiving Point. It was pretty fun. My mom and her good friend Judy came too. We had a good time. It got a bit cold and windy so we went to McDonalds. Candace and I decided that the kids had more fun there. Next year we will save the $10.50 a person and just go to the Lehi McDonalds! Our kids are very easy to please!

Tag you're it!

2008-10-21T12:25:00.000-07:00

I got tagged by my friend Shannon. This is what you do. You go to your fourth file and pick the fourth picture and post it. Mine is of Ele at her cousin Carly's birthday party last year. She is wearing her Tinker Bell costume. She loved that thing last year. This Halloween she is going to be Cinderella. So we soon will have another dress up dress!
I tag Candace, Em, Jes, Lexi, Zulie, McKell, April, Aimee, and Amy. Have fun!

Pumpkins, Chuck E Cheese, Fun, Oh My!

2008-10-17T09:57:00.000-07:00

Well, we have been doing a lot of fun things this last week while Jac is constantly working. He has been traveling a lot this last couple of months, and while he was in Laguna this last weekend, my sister Candace and I took the kids to Pumpkin Land at Vinyard Gardens and then to Chuck E Cheese. I am not a huge fan of Chuck E Cheese, but Ele loves it. Even though she got lost. Yes, we had our first paging over the P.A. system. I was freaking out! I don't like Ele to wander off, and I am a psycho when it comes to her being where I can see her. She just decided to take a detour and couldn't find the table. It was really sad. But, all in all, we had a blast! My parents came too. It was great! Phin enjoyed his first time there. He sat with Bapa and laughed. Yes, my dad got to see Phin's first laugh. I got it on camera too. It is great!
We have really been missing Jac being home and around, but we have been enjoying ourselves while he has been away. We just wish he was with us!

She did it!

2008-10-06T12:50:00.001-07:00

YAY! Ele has done it! She is FINALLY potty trained! We spent all week last week naked at home going potty. Jac and I are so proud of her. It was really hard for her. She was almost completely potty trained and then I went into the hospital to have Phin and she gave up. She decided that she needed to be a baby still, and didn't want to even try for the last two months. Nothing was working. Jac was evening telling her he would buy her a play house for the backyard, and she still wouldn't do it. I just got fed up with changing her pull ups, and that was it! She handled it really well and has even pooped on the potty. That is amazing for Ele.
She is such a sweet, beautiful, smart and amazing little girl who Jac and I adore. We love you Ele, and we are so proud of you.
Oh yea, she loves the Disney Princess collection she got for her accomplishment. What ever works right?!?!?!

FINALLY!

2008-09-30T19:40:00.001-07:00

Well, I finally finished Breaking Dawn. I know, I know, I can't believe it took me this long too. I am usually a very quick reader, but this one took a while. This was definitely not my favorite of the series, but I read it and I am glad to be done with it. I LOVED Twilight, but I think the last three have definitely gone down hill each book. Well, that is my opinion on the series. Those of you who love them all, good for you. I am a much bigger Mr. Darcy fan than I am an Edward or Jacob fan. NOW that is a MAN! I have had a secret passion for Mr. Darcy since I was a junior in high school and it has still continued even though I am married to a very AMAZING man. I watch Pride and Prejudice at least twice a month. It is a very sick obsession, and it drives Jac crazy! He is a very patient with my Mr. Darcy infatuation. Jac is definitely my Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy.
Well then, I have said my peace. I love to read and will read just about anything, but I have to say that Pride and Prejudice is my favorite book to date.

Circus and Bumbo time!

2008-09-28T19:59:00.000-07:00

Well, life has definitely been crazy around the Scott household. Jac is working non stop. He and Steven landed a really great side job gig, so he is pretty much non existent. We see him maybe an hour a day. It has been really hard on Ele. She misses her daddy so much. And I didn't realize how much he does around here until he is gone. We are going to make it though. He will be finished by the 18th of October. So if you see me with less hair, you know why. HEEEEHEEEE!
I took Ele up to see the Circus this last Friday. She needed a date with mom with no baby Phin. Phin stayed home with my great friend Jessica and had a great time with her and her son Noah. Me and my parents took Ele to see "The greatest show on earth." It really was spectacular! I think me and my parents liked it more then Ele, but she really had a good time. After I spent $22 on a spinny light thingy, and $12 on cotton candy, She was set! She watched then entire show sitting on Gram or Bapa's lap. I didn't get the best of pics because like the moron I am, I brought the little point and shoot and not the good camera. Sorry babe! It is really sad when you are married to a professional photographer and have access the the best cameras, and you take your little one and you don't know how to use it very well. Here are a couple pics that I could salvage.
Phin is a very happy baby now. Since we got the Colic under control, thanks to Gripe water, he is a new baby! Well, he still screams in the car, but we are dealing with that. He is actually getting better. BUT, he is really happy because he can finally sit in his Bumbo chair. He LOVES it! He can see the world. He really likes to sit and watch Ele play and just see what is going on. His eyes are bugging out of his head because he is a Davis and we have huge eyes. Everyone thinks he looks scared all the time, but that is just the joy of having big blues!
Well, that is what has been going on with the Scott clan. We are really looking forward to Fall and all the fun it brings. I love the smell of the leaves and seeing all the colors change on the mountains. Fall is the time of year that I met Jac and fell and never looked back. He is the most amazing husband and father. We all miss having him around so much and can't wait for him to be home more. We are looking forward to celebrating Jac's birthday and our tenth wedding anniversary this November. I am very blessed and love my family so much.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

2008-08-21T16:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my mom's birthday. Happy Birthday to my Mommy! Anyone that knows my mom understands why I love her sooooooooo much! She is an amazing woman. She is the best daughter, wife, mom, grandma, and friend. She is always there for all of us. Especially for me lately. It has been a real adjustment for me going from a mom of one, to a mom of two. I wouldn't of made it without my mom. She has really been there for me and the kids. Jac is going to be working a lot out of town the next couple of months, and I know my mom is always right there if I need her. I love you mom. You are an amazing, strong, and loving woman. We are all so lucky to have you.

HAPPY DAY!

2008-08-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

I know that this may be a really stupid post, but I had to share my joy. I am a really spoiled girl when it comes to gifts from Jac. He bought me a Tiffany & Co. bracelet a few years ago for Valentines Day. And then for Christmas last year he bought me a "E" charm from Tiffany's to go on my bracelet. Well, I haven't been able to find the bracelet for a while. I have been really sick about it. I remember wearing it on Easter, but that is the last time I remember having it on. I hadn't told Jac that I couldn't find it because I didn't want him to think I had lost it. Well, I have been having dreams lately that I find my bracelet in weirdest places. Yesterday morning Ele wanted me to paint her toes. I went into the downstairs bathroom cabinet to get out the fingernail polish box, and sitting right there on the shelf was my bracelet. I get in that cabinet at least three times a day, I can't believe I hadn't found it before.
YAY! I about died! I seriously started to cry. I am not joking! I have been obsessing about it for while. I am soooooooooooooo happy that I found it! Now i can maybe get a "P" for it?!?!?! We will have to see! I am actually hinting and bucking for a new wedding band for our 10 year anniversary, so we will see. You should all give Jac hints when you see him! HEEEEHEEEE!!

kidlings!

2008-08-13T17:01:00.000-07:00

Well, Phin is one month old. How time flies. I can't believe it. I am getting use to not sleeping FINALLY! He is a really good baby though. He is usually really content and happy if mommy is holding him. He loves his big sister and will stop crying as soon as he hears her voice. Ele is sooooooooo good with him. She doesn't understand to not put things over his face, and pushes a little hard on him when she is helping me change his diapers or helping get him dressed, but other than that, she is amazing with him. She did say the other day that I should just put a pillow over his face to get him to stop crying! OY! Jac and I keep a very good eye on her right now with him. Where did she get that Bapa?!?!?! My dad likes to teach Ele really interesting things!

Cowgirl!

2008-07-30T12:17:00.000-07:00

I had to share this picture with everyone. Anyone who knows Ele knows she is not much of a girly girl. She is very much a little Tom Boy who loves horses. Daddy took her to Gunnies the other day and let her pick out her own cowboy hat. She loves it! She wears all the time. She was so tired the other day in the car and fell asleep with her hat on. She is so excited because she is going to the Rodeo, the "Radio" as she calls it, on August 8th up in Summit County. Mommy and Phin are probably going to stay home. We still haven't decided if he and I are going.

OH NO!

2008-07-30T11:24:00.000-07:00

Well, Things in the Scott house are a lot different. We are adjusting to having little Phin around. I am learning to live on 4 hours of sleep, and carting two kids around instead of one. BUT, there is one of us in this house who is still her little spunky self. Ele has been AMAZING adjusting to having a baby brother. She has her moments of tantrums, but she all in all she has just been great. Until yesterday afternoon. I took the kids up to my mom's house so Ele could run around the back yard and just be in her world of adventure and do her thing. Well, my mom and I were sitting at the kitchen table watching Ele out in the sand box which is in the very back of my parents yard. Their sandbox surrounds an old apple tree that my parents don't really care about, so they let the kids pick the apples and play with them as long as they throw the apples in the trash so Grandpa doesn't run over them with the lawn mower. Well, there aren't many apples left on the tree because the kids have pulled most of the low ones off already, but Ele needed some food for her horses so she decided to pick the "apples," from the little trees in Grams garden. Well, they weren't apples they were my mom's Roma tomatoes that she was so excited about. Let's just say, my mom won't have to many Roma's this summer! Grandma and Grandpa laughed so hard they could hardly stand it! Ele is a very lucky little girl to have a grandma and grandpa with such a good sense of humor. They thought it was just the funniest thing when she carted them into the house and showed them what she had done and apologized. She is our sweet little adventurer!

Phin

2008-07-15T19:18:00.000-07:00

Well, He is here. Phineas Jacob Scott was born on Thursday, July 10, 2008 at 2:13 pm. He Weighed 8 lbs and was 20 in long. BIG BOY! He is our sweet little Angel and we are so happy to finally have him here. He is already sleeping half the night and only cries when he has to get his diaper changed. Ele is a HUGE fan of her baby brother and wants to do everything for him. She is our little helper. Phin loves her already.

Mothers Day

2008-05-07T10:38:00.000-07:00

Mothers. What can you say. Jac and I are so blessed to have the best moms! Ele is so in love with both of her grandmothers. She adores them, and talks about them so much. She loves to go to Grandma Scott's house and make popcorn and watch movies. She loves to go to Grandma Davis's and play in the backyard and play with Grandma and Grandpas rocks and dirt. They are all so great and love Ele so much. We love our moms, and want them to know how much we appreciate them. Ele is so lucky to have two amazing women to look up too. Our moms are both the most nurturing, loving women and they take such good care of their families. We love and thank you both so much. Happy Mothers Day!

Spring Chick!

2008-04-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been a while since I have posted anything, so I thought I had better get off my duff and get something updated. Life is just moving a long for the Scotts. We are getting ready for our sweet baby boy to enter the world. We only have 11 weeks left to go. WOW! How time goes by so quickly. We are getting his room all ready and trying to prepare Ele for what is coming. She seems to be really excited and says she has a baby in her belly too. She is really getting into taking care of her babies lately and loves to feed them bottles. I think she is going to be an amazing big sister.
We have been doing a lot of fun things out side in this beautiful weather. My sister Candace and I took our kids to the Hogle Zoo a couple of weeks ago and we had a blast! The kids love to see the animals and loved running around. Candace and I enjoyed watching them discover all the animals, but we really enjoyed being out in the gorgeous weather and enjoying each others company.
Ele Loves her Sandbox in our backyard and pretty much lives out there. She was out there almost all day yesterday. It is nice to sit out there with her and play. She is our sweet Angel. We love her so much, and can't get enough of her.
Jac took some really great shots of Ele the other day.We were at Jac's parents in the front yard, and he got some really cute pics. We are very proud parents of our little girl. She has started going on the potty, and is such a big girl. It kind of makes you sad when you look back at how little she use to be. Now she is a maniac on her scooter and has started peddling on her bike. Daddy wants to buy her a big girl bike with training wheels for her birthday next month. We will have too see how it goes.

IT'S A BOY!!!!!!

2008-02-28T16:20:00.000-08:00

Yes, you are reading it right! The Scotts are having a baby boy! We are so excited! He is very healthy and doing well. We are so happy to share our news with you all. We aren't sure about names yet, and probably won't until he is born. That is how it was with Elle. A little boy!
I don't think I will know what to do! I will need lots of advice from all of my friends.
Here are a couple of pictures from our Ultrasound.

Happy Love Day!

2008-02-14T09:38:00.001-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! Today is a great day! I love Valentines Day! I love to make cookies, eat candy, and be with my family. I am still not sure what I am doing for my sweetie, so any ideas are welcome!
Hope you all have a good day with your families. We love you all very much!

Snow, snow go away!

2008-02-04T12:57:00.000-08:00

I don't know about you all, but I am DONE with the snow! I am ready for Spring! Elle keeps asking to go to the Park and go ride the ponies at Thanksgiving Pointe. She is sick of being cooped up in the house too! We are ready to see some green grass, tulips sprouting out of the garden, and feel the warmth of the sun. Elle is lucky though. She has an amazing Dad who takes her swimming at the Orem Rec. She loved it!
I have been doing a lot of reading lately. I just finished one of the best books I have ever read in my life. It is up there with the Twilight series. It is called Austenland by Shannon Hale. It is fabulous! I have a MAJOR obsession with Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice, so it was right up my alley. Check it out if you are looking for something to read. She also has a great series out that is good too. The Goose Girl, Enna Burning, and River Secrets. Very good! She is a fabulous writer! I love to read. Elle does too, she will sit next to me with her books and look at the pictures and ask me if I want to trade her books. When we do trade, she wants hers back pretty quickly because mommy's doesn't have any pictures.
Jac and I will be finding out what sex the babies is on February 28th at 2 pm, so I will keep you all posted! WE ARE REALLY EXCITED!! Elle says it's a baby sister, but we aren't sure. My mom thinks it's a boy, and I don't have a feeling either way. With Elle, I knew she was a girl, but this one, I am not sure. We don't care what it is, we just want a healthy baby! So, stay tuned for the big news!

Happy 2008!

2008-01-12T11:50:00.000-08:00

Well, we made it through Christmas. Whew! It was a good time, but it is nice to be starting the new year. Jac and I are very excited for this coming year. We are expecting another baby this July, and Elle can't wait! She talks about it all the time. I just wish I could get past the sick times. Just when I think I am done being sick, something new starts. BUT, it is totally worth it. I love being a mom, and can't wait to do it again!
We are looking forward to lot's of fun and adventure this coming year! Jac always has something going on with work or side work, but he is still the greatest dad in the world! Elle can't get enough of him. He is actually Elle's horse. She rides on Daddy when ever she can! I am very lucky to have him. He is so helpful.
I am new at this whole blogging thing, so I will try and keep updating on what is going on with the Scott family.

2007-12-14T07:29:00.001-08:00

Happy Christmas!

2007-12-08T09:34:00.001-08:00

Happy Christmas to our family and friends! We are trying to get into the Spirit of Christmas. Jac is currently in Miami until Friday the 15th. He has already been gone for a week, and we have one more to go! Elle is a bit confused, but she knows that daddy is on a trip! We sure miss him. Of course I have no shopping done, but I am hopefully going to get some done next week. Being sick and pregnant is not fun when you are a single mom of a two year old at Christmas time. But, I am extremely blessed and love my little Elle more than anything in the world! She is a good girl and helps her mommy out a lot! Here are a few pictures of Elle from this last summer. She is our sweetheart!

Jac and Kelly in New York

2007-11-27T18:41:00.000-08:00

Jac and I went to New York last month. We went with our friend Jory and had a blast!! Elle stayed here with my parents and had blast of her own. She loves her Grandmas and Grandpas.
Jac had a conference out there for work, and Jory and I tagged along. We went and saw all the wonderful sights and walked a ton! I got to go to Canal Street in China Town and I got some Fabulous purses!
Jac also took me to Tiffanys. It has been my dream since fifth grade to go to Tiffany's.
We had a great time and can't wait to go back!

Tinkerbell!

2007-11-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

Elle was Tinkerbell for Halloween. She loves wearing her costume and tells me that she is a princess. She sure is! She is sure a silly little girl.

Eleanor

2007-11-27T18:20:00.000-08:00

Eleanor is our two and half year old daughter. She is a ham! She is soooooooooo fun and does hilarious things. She is the light of our life. She loves Horses and all kinds of animals. We get to watch Spirit, Madagascar, and Home on the Range all day long! Mommy loves it:) Jac and I know how blessed we are to have her. She is so much fun to be with. She is going to be a big sister in 7 months, and she can't wait! She keeps telling us is a baby sister, but today she told me it was a brother. We don't care, we just want a healthy baby. Everyone says that, but we really don't care what the sex is. I think I would like a boy, but Elle would sure love a little sister to boss around.